21 July 2007

CHAPTER 5

"Mr. Itsuki, we are going to give you an anesthetic, so that you would not feel any pain during the whole procedure. After this, we will first bring you to a special germ-free ward to wait for the anesthetic to take effect."

After the injection, he was wheeled into a germ-free ward by a nurse. Inside the ward, he saw that there was a huge curtain separating the entire ward. he looked at the nurse with an enquiringly.

"That is the patient you are saving...... She is such a young child, poor thing, so young and yet suffering from leukemia. Without your bone marrow, she would not be able to live past next month...."

After that, the nurse left the ward, leaving only him and the patient. As the anesthetic begin to take effect, he heard a faint sniffle. It seemed to be coming from the same room.

"Hi.... are you crying?"

She was shocked. She was too overwhelmed by her own emotions that she had not noticed that there was another person in the same ward as her......

"No... nothing.... are you the donor?"

She asked softly.

"Er... yes......."

He was getting drowsy by the moment. But her voice seemed so familiar, as if he heard it before somewhere......

"Thank you......"

Where did he hear it from before? It really seemed familiar to him, but he could not remember. Maybe she is a television artiste? He thought to himself.

"You are welcome.... but why are you crying so bitterly? After I donate my bone marrow to you, you will recover..... and the doctor....."

Before he could finish his sentence, she spoke....

“I am afraid.... that if I never wake up again, I can never see him anymore......?"

"Who?"

"He is someone I love very much...... He said he love me too... But I guess, he doesn’t anymore.... after I broke his heart........"

"How old are you? The nurse told me that you were a very young girl......."

"I am actually 20 this year..... Nurse Todo always treats me as a little girl, but I am actually 20......"

Out of the blue, her image suddenly flashed across his mind.... Could it be that..... No, he shooked his head, how could it be? After all, she has already left this country, isn't it so? He struggled to keep himself awake.....

"Maybe, even if I die.... it would be better...."

She continued talking, not really to him, but herself as well.

"It would be better....to die.... than to live in a world without him...... Why.... when I gave him up,...then did you appear......."

Every word that she said pierced his heart deeply, as he could felt what she was going through....... Tears were flowing from his eyes.....it really was her.......

"I love you, very much.... that's why...... I cannot be with you. To begin a relationship with you means that it will end someday, but because....... I love you too much, I don't ever want to say goodbye to you..... I don't have much time..... I am leaving soon..... So, instead of having to start and end a relationship, if we never ever started, then we will be together forever ....... "

She gasped.

"How did you........."

Before she could finish her words, she fainted.......


CHAPTER 6

He tried to shout for help, but could not..... the drugs were taking effect. He was losing control of himself, as he succumbs to the anesthetic.

"Help.... someone.... Kotoko..... don't......"

As he drift in and out between reality and dreamland, he thought he heard a lot of noises......

"Hurry up, push her into the operating room...... she is slipping away....we have to perform the operation immediately now......."

As the sun ray shone on him, his eye lid flickered. Finally, he opened his eyes......

"Mr. Itsuki, you have woken up. We were so afraid that you might have an infection. Be careful...."

Nurse Todo helped him to a sitting position. What had happened? He tried to recall what had happen just before. Yes, what happened to her?

"How is she? How was the operation?"

He looked at the nurse anxiously, waiting for her to speak. But, the nurse seemed hesitant.... She cleared her throat and shuffled her feet, as if trying to drag time...... She had knew that he was the person she always told her of, the most important person in her life, and she also knew that he loved this young girl very much. So, how could she bear to break the news to him.......

Finally, she opened her mouth.

"The operation was rather successful, but her body was too weak and could not take the operation.... So... so... she fell into a coma......"

He was stunned....... coma? The nurse turned to face the window. She did not want to face Takeshi, did not want to face his grief. She herself was also very upset. She was such a lovely girl, so charming and always so kind to everyone.......

"I want to see her......."

He struggled to get out of bed. It was hard to imagine that so many things would happen within such a short period of time. A week ago, he had just confessed his love to a healthy girl, and now this girl is lying in the hospital, in a coma........ not knowing when she might ever wake up.....

Finally, he saw her. There she was, lying peacefully on the bed, as if nothing had happened, as if she was just in a deep sleep, as if she would suddenly wake up and greet him with a smile on her face...... But it was not so.... she might never wake up..... as he thought of it, tears welled in his eyes. Why? Why did Heaven play such a prank on her? She was such a good person, why did she have to suffer all these?

As he sat next to her clutching her soft hand, the doctor came in. He has also known about Takeshi's relationship with Kotoko from Nurse Todo. He patted him softly on the back, as if giving him encouragement.

"When will she wake up?"

The doctor paused for a while before he spoke

"Mr. Itsuki, there is something which I have to tell you.... During the operation, we also discovered a small benign tumour at the back of Ms.Mimura's head. Although we have successfully removed it, but there is a possibility that when she wakes up, she might lose her memory........"

20 July 2007

CHAPTER 3

Dear Takeshi,
Hi, I am really very surprised to receive your letter..... This was something beyond my imaginations. I never knew that all along, you had liked me. Till now, I still cannot believe it. It all seemed just like a dream....

For so many years, I thought I was the one missing you, when you never knew my existence... But to know that someone whom I had loved deeply feels the same way towards me, I am really happy..... All these years, I have always wondered if I had not met you that time, would I still be the old me, who knows nothing about love? I do think so, for you are the one who taught me how to love.

Till now, I never forget anything about you...... the chance encounters that we had, the things that I had done for you secretly.... insignificant things, yet important things to me. Tell you something, actually, all these years, I have also been going back to our ex- school, hoping to see you..... But I never had a chance to see you there..... I always left in disappointment, in sorrow, and almost in tears, for I really missed you very much.
But now that I knew about your feelings, everything is worth it. I have never been so happy before in my life. Thank you for loving me...... for I really love you..... But, we can never be together......

I love you, very much.... that's why I cannot be with you. To begin a relationship with you means that it will end someday, but because I love you too much, I don't ever want to say goodbye to you..... I don't have much time..... I am leaving soon..... So, instead of having to start and end a relationship, if we never ever started, then we will be together forever.......
To know that you love me is already enough, thank you......
I love you........


CHAPTER 4

After that very letter, they never kept contact anymore.....

"Dear Mr. Itsuki,

During our analysis, we have found out that your bone marrow matches with one of our patients. We sincerely hope that you are willing to donate part of your bone marrow in order to save the patient.
Kindly contact us as soon as possible so that we can prepare you for the operation as soon as possible.
Please help this patient. Thank you very much.

Director
Ryonan Hospital,


“Thank you so much for donating your bone marrow. We assure you that the operation is a short and safe one. All we need to do is to extract a portion of your bone marrow and inject it into the patient. This will save the patient's life. Thank you so much, Mr. Itsuki...... By the way, do you want to know some details about the patient whom you are helping? "

“It’s ok, after all, I am just doing my part. I don't need others' gratitude......."

“You are such a kind person, Mr. Itsuki.... Heaven would bless you forever......"

"If only....." he looks up at the sky with a sad face, "then I would never have known such great sorrow......"

What might she be doing now? Has she left? Where has she gone to? He thought to himself. Even though they never kept contact anymore after her only letter, he still remembered her, clearly and painfully. A woman whom he loved and who loved him so deeply too. Though he was devastated to be rejected by him, but he could not blame her too..... How could he? When she herself must be feeling so painful too.... to love someone and yet not be together. It was something which could not be explained easily.

Maybe, he thought to himself.... maybe someday we will meet again...... maybe if we were meant to be, we will be together somehow, no matter what, no matter when......

Silently, he whispered,

I love you...... as if she was standing next to him......


MY NEXT FEW POST WILL BE MAKE INTO A STORY..

BG INFORMATION:
the story is not created by me.. i ran into it while surfing the net.. credit goes to the originator of the story..

story is based from tokyo.. uber lovey dovey.. non-mushy/lovey dovey type pls dont bother to read my next few post..

well, the names in the story quite weird? i guess.. but the story did touch my heart.. ^.^

n the story is uber wordy..

ok here goes..

LOVE LETTERS

CHAPTER 1
Dear Takeshi,

Hi, how are you? You might not know me, but I have known you for a very long time. Since the first time I saw you, I knew you.

I hope that you are not shocked by my confession and certainly even more hope that you would not throw away this letter without even reading it because it really took me a lot of courage to write all these out.

Time really waits for no man. It might be hard for you to believe, but I have actually liked you for almost five years.... Five long years...... I remember seeing this certain scene from a drama that said that a person's love would only last for three years. Yet, after so long, I am still so much in love with you. Maybe, I do think that I might never forget you...... I will love you forever.... no matter what, no matter when.......

I never knew how love felt until the day I met you...... It was a unique and special feeling.... the warmth in the heart, the breathing difficulties when I see you..... the silly smile I always carry when you look in my direction.... Until the day I met you, perhaps I never really loved before..... Perhaps all these years that I have lived, I was only waiting for you, waiting for you to come into my life........

When you read this letter, you will never see me again..... i promised myself that I will only post out this letter if I have to leave you........ Yes, I am leaving..... leaving this place...... How I really wanted to stay by your side always....... never to leave you. Yet now, I have to say goodbye to you when I have never even said Hello to you before....... I always wished that I need not say Goodbye to you..... but yet I have to...... Maybe you might find my letter disturbing or even stupid.... but I have to let you know..... to let you know that, that someone actually loved you with all her heart.....that she loves you, no matter what, no matter when.... sincerely and truthfully, with all her heart and soul........

Maybe, I will never have a chance to say this in front of you, but at least I let you know. At least you knew that I wanted to tell you this.....
I love you.........



CHAPTER 2

Dear Kotoko,
Hi, I hope you would not be too surprised to actually hear from me. You must be wondering how I actually know your address, but that would be my little secret for now.

How have you been these few years? It's been almost three years since we graduated, three years since I ever saw you again.

Maybe you had not known, but actually I have already noticed you in school days........ How could I not, when you were always somewhere near me...... Actually, I have something to confess..... I had always knew that you like me. Since that very first time I saw you, I knew you liked me. Although we never knew each other in school, but surely no one could have missed it when there was such a lovely person who always looked at you in such a special and tender way.

Somehow rather, I had always felt that I knew you, but just can't explain. It's as if I had known you for a very long time, but how could it be, when I don't even know you. Perhaps you never knew, but didn't it seem strange that you were always able to be somewhere near me? Actually.... I had always tried to appear near you, really dumb, right? But that was all that I could do.....

During the three years that we left school, I thought of you, a lot...... Though we graduated for a long three years, but I often went back to our ex-school, hoping to catch a glimpse of you, but yet never successful in it. I did consider calling you, but never did so, for I was afraid. Afraid that you never really felt the same way as I did, afraid that after we graduated, you had forgotten about me, afraid that you will never be mine.......

Yet now, here I am, writing this love letter for you, my first love letter.......
But I remember from a movie scene that said, “When a person ages and has no memories, it is alright. But it would not be so if he has a lot of regrets when he is old...." I do not want to have any regrets when I am old..... That's why I have decided to do this. No matter what the outcome is, at least I told you how I felt. At least, I would never have any regrets in life. Since, I cannot bring myself to tell you in the face, how I feel, I can only convey it through this letter.
I love you........ since the first time I saw you, till now and forever.......

19 July 2007

week 14 is coming to an end soon..

6 weeks left before school finish.. haiz, need to chiong chiong chiong!..

*bish bish*

well, had a hard time today.. as per normal, slept in class..

im hungry, i wanna eat..

i miss bein quiet..

tmrw/nxt week might be a quiet day..

^.^ bb..

17 July 2007

a self destruct post..

izwan: must love her, is a must must must..
lzwan: wah lao, again n again..
izwan: in life, wan must nvr give up..
lzwan: u havnt make an attempt how to give up..
izwan: tu aku punye pasal ar..(muiz voice) *tat one my problem ar..*
lzwan: slap ur face damn hard telling urself
izwan: diam la..
lzwan: tat u repeating tis process
izwan: o.O
lzwan: there are many other girls who are **e**
izwan: wt-fish.. argh!.. %@%@@%@@^@%@$@^@^

*slaps face*

ok, done with the low profile budget self destructing..

never ever will i go thru tat feeling again with the same person even she does have tat feeling..

eee, no dun talk abt it..

diam la.. wah lao i dun blog..



*raise hands, points index finger up, points middle finger up, raise it high*

PEACE!.. ^.^

to Lee, u better say tis abv phrase to me before i burn ur hair.. rawr.. @.@

16 July 2007

SUMMARISE MY DAY:

SCHOOL WAS GREAT AS USUAL..

TKS FATHUL INDIRECTLY FOR GETTING ME DRENCH IN THE RAIN..

TKS JERALD FOR THE COMPLIMENT..

TO READERS, BYE.. "-_-

XP

14 July 2007

hello READERS!.. ^.^

today, nothing much happen just rot at home n stare the comp 24/7.. ._.

but friday was a blast.. i was late for morning class so decided not to attend ONLY morning lessons..

BUT, u noe how distractions interfere my intentions.. after friday prayers, my bro, fathul, yat, amrul seems to collide with me.. n knowing tat they were very free n have nothing to do.. sumone suggested to chill at the arcades.. well, tis was the turning point, i did not even rmbr of school.. so off we went to the arcades.. ._."

hang ard there.. bro decided to go home to buy food.. then amrul decided to go home, to buy food too.. ._. n need to attend P.A..

yat is yearning for the initial D 4 license.. it cost a total of $8 just to get a car n the license card.. o.O then $3 to play the game.. a total of $11 for first timers.. holy c0w.. tat $11 can buy up to 2 meals non upsize.. "-_-

n u noe NEBO.. forgot to take the pic of the place.. NEBO is smex.. i like the place loads.. i wanna go there often.. fun place to do projects, slack, chill, burn pockets, BOARD GAMES!.. they provide u to play BOARD GAMES!.. so fun..

it took f.y.i ard 1/2 hr to enter that place due to inexperience bomb defuser.. ._." well, one of the counter girls is so cute.. ^.^ but her voice reminds me of sumone.. X_X

gonna sign up for the membership card tmrw.. ^.^ hopefully mum sponsor.. XP bleahs..

after NEBO-ing, yat off to bugis.. me n peithol (in tat karang guni voice) walk walk at amk hub.. then off he went to take 22..

while for me, i walk back to NYP.. n JERALD call me on time when i reach nyp entrance..

waited for him for SOOOOOO loong.. he shud get a h/p.. coz its hard to reach him.. its only possible to reach him via maple or msn..

hse -> nvr pick up the phone/slp..
afandy -> i cant be bother to call him to ask where the hell is jerald..

went to kfc to have dinner.. well, since jerald bought his laptop.. he showed me a funny jap video.. uber hilarious, u guys shud request from him.. ^.^

while i ordered the food, he launch maple.. lol..

eat, eat, maple, maple, go amk hub again, "=_=, worst case NEBO again.. "-_-

n arcades again.. @_@

but the arcades at nite seems to be better.. there's an uncle.. his really relax.. u noe the machine tat filled with sweets.. then u try ur luck to get as many sweets as possible.. here is the "wow" factor..

HE FILL ONE BIG PLASTIC BAG WITH SWEETS FROM THAT MACHINE!.. N IT WAS SO BIG N THICK.. the best part is, he get to win sum plushies from the machine.. wtfish.. is CNY getting near or is he goin to open a minimart with those sweets.. or is it another creative method of suicide by indulging urself to millions of sweets..

and that wraps off the day.. ^.^



** u make me wonder.. i will be urs.. no rushing ;)

13 July 2007

a slap in the face would really help me rite now..

6weeks left.. T_T

things have not been rite nowadays..

12 July 2007

SAY IT LOUD N SAY IT PROUD!.. XP

~ raise hands


~ points index finger up


~ points middle finger up


~ raise it high



PEACE!.. ^.^






peace is the new smex.. my

campaign is way more better

than LIVE EARTH.. bleahs..



cost - efficient.. n it only takes

iniative to pass it ard..

voila.. im the best..


pwning.. XP

11 July 2007

when the time hit 6pm, i have gone thru 30hrs w/o getting a slp..

will ko soon.. very soon.. XP

FINALLY PROJECT DONE!.. woots..

ok, i will rest.. mum came home from hospital bah.. after 5 days!.. within tat 5 days, i became "mum" in my hse.. cooking frying bla bla bla..

now im goin to be my mum nurse.. ^.^

n i like tis pic.. XP bleahs, i like all my pics la can.. @_@




10 July 2007

kelly says: im black, handsome, i sing plus im rich n im a flirt..

izwan says: im brown, simple, i sing plus im rich n im a flirt..

XP

bleah.. nonsense.. bb.. projectS!.. @_@

09 July 2007

THE TODAY'S POST


there will be 2 main sections in this blog.. warning: im not bein insensitive or whatever shit, but its just me who want to post tis out.. so bare with it.. n its super uber long.. suggest to read it before u slp or when u are free..

1) REAL INSULTS [main]
2) JOKE INSULTS [main]
3) MISS INSULTS


well, let's start with 1)..

wats with the ex bts nowadays.. esp those who i seem to be close with have change alot.. @_@ well, those who i seem to be close with are MELAYU APE..

wats with former 4e3?.. wat happen to u ppl la seh.. first, lets point out YAT!.. whats with him?.. calling other bitch w/o realising his at fault.. i mean u dun label ppl tat bad after u giving them "trouble" during hooi san bday.. wat do u expect from a bday celebrations?.. prata festival?.. im talking facts here.. bday party/celebrations = lavishing big money or set a higher budget.. on the other hand, yvette shudnt embarass yat + irsyad at her blog but she have evry right.. n damn rite i have evry rite to blog abt others.. n yat ur attitude sux recently.. well i hate to say it but well, its just me.. ._. n if its not for others mentioning it, i wouldnt mention it here..

n wats with fathul?.. what in the world did he tag at yvette's blog?.. he dun even uds wth she is saying.. n ask yat what she did at yat's blog?.. *dang* obviously he dun get a single bit of the story.. n from the past to present to the future, he wont change unless constant insults/naggings.. his apology was nvr seen to be sincere, in any case if he apologise..

so 2 of my besties are here in the insult page.. note: tis is a random insults.. anyone can appear..

n zulfah, not bein kpo or wat.. just plain observant.. it seems tat evry negative stuff tat happen to her seems to be blame on sumone else.. weird heh.. n i realise one thing, she have a similar catch phrase: "hurting me is a mistake u will regret" i can go on n on starting from yat to the present but i can assure a thing i wont be finishing my project..

whats up with tat?.. she can blabber abt all the good stuff in a day, n 1 fart away, evrything can turn negative.. like fcuk rite.. imagine saying i love u, then i dump u soon after.. ._.

next, hafidz!.. well, i dun really find u change alot but rmbr wat u say.. if u hate smokers, then why are u one?.. well, theres nothing much abt u i can point..

so, theres the list i can point out there.. 4e2 wise?.. let's see.. not much i can point out, coz i dun really kept in touch with them via reality, virtual, blog, frenster, anyways of communications within space..

4e1, till now i do feel they do not have a life.. ._.

n wats with amrul.. firstly busy with P.A, n when u finally had a free time, we wanted to play soccer BUT cancel due to lack of ppl present.. n u vent ur anger on my bro.. wtf.. vincent make the last min cancellation.. n he need to be the victim, well dun need to find us la if u want to attitude over little stuff.. in the end, u went to P.A.. so wat is there to be angry abt?..

*off-note: nabei vincent, i want to play mahjong laaaaaaaaaaaa..

darn, didnt expect it to turn out to be this short.. i wanted it to be longer, i forgot alot of ppl i want to place into section 1).. @_@ let me try to rmbr..

cant rmbr nia..

on process of proving a theory tat black hair ppl seems to be having attitude problems/etc than a gold hair guy (me).. erm, i tio own them?.. time will tell..

i dun really care if they hate me or not but its just me n me.. i talk facts after long observations.. i cant change sumone well coz they are old enough to realise their own mistakes.. eh wait, lets put it in yat's way.. their dick is big enough.. ._.

enough of section 1)

section 2)

to lighten up the moods a little..

wats up with LEE, his nick at msn

"He have a vision for tomorrow, we must believe. He's PM Lee"

nabei la, the real PM Lee listen to wat u say tio heart attack.. ._. n wth, i havnt return my coffee bean shirt.. @_@

well, section 2) is always for LEE.. nabei.. eh LEE, dun kpkb here.. XP

joking.. can can?..

n CAROLI, go to bed early la siooooooooooolllll..

3) MISS INSULTS is actually nothing.. is just the list of ppl i miss alot n kept in touch with them in msn / reality / virtually..

syasya, caroli, YAT BERG, fai, NABIL e BEAR, hajar, lee, JERALD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah lao eh, jerald make maple fun.. hahas.. at least theres a fren to talk nonsense with in-game.. spice up my gaming.. eh, when are we goin to hang out again?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

well, all sections finish.. lets start with the flaming or acceptance..

NOTE:
wat might happen
~ sum ppl wouldnt tag
~ they will blog abt me
~ they will go way off topic

* if u do feel tat i have misuse my rites on freedom of speech, u may find me near a grocery store.. im always free n eating apple..

dun kpkb if u dun uds wth im trying to bring out in this post.. well, u can always ask..

troublemakers are loved, i pwn them

hard.. ^^





08 July 2007

a conversation tat happened in the morning.. (direct translation to english)

teacher: eyy, what happen to ur hair?..

me: hahas.. *smile*

teacher: not handsome u noe, later ppl think differently..

me: it's not abt the hair, it's abt the attitude.. *smile*

XP when i went up to the teacher, tat was when the conversation started.. well, my teacher is kind can.. ^.^

n today is the weirdest day i ever had can?.. got tis 1 guy scared the freak out of ME!.. u noe the back seat of evry bus.. 5 seats rite.. well 2 strangers sitting on the >>>

while me n my bro sit on the <<<

then one guy board tis bus, ard 30 i guess.. he sat in the middle of the 5 seats.. n damn sure his face is weird.. i was like, since my bro take up alot of space!.. n tis guy have tat weird face staring blankly to space.. i was like, can tis guy dun be freaky pls?..

he remind me of bryan (bts) but i guess bryan will freak out when see tis guy la seh.. "-_-

ok, not nice to talk abt ppl.. its just sumting to share abt.. "-_-

btw, fathul, G.E is "gerek la seh".. do u uds wat i mean now?.. @_@

n im composing a new lyrics.. ^.^ its nice.. zzz its nice coz i created it!.. @_@

now, im off.. im online (appear offline).. "-_-

07 July 2007

yozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

just reach home.. XP

had a soccer match early in the morn.. T_T as per normal, i woke up late, i came late, i did not had my breakfast n i WAS UBER HUNGRY DURING THE MATCH.. kaos.. @_@

shud have take my breakfast.. T_T

well, met up with the BTS-nians.. had fun.. finally got to hang out with them, even its not long still worth evry minute of it..

* n stop calling me a MAT im not one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my attitude is not a MAT.. im still me.. XP

well, dun stop here.. i lost my place.. im close behind..

this above sentence is from the song, i did not noe wat to write so just write the above lyrics..

a lesson to self: even the best(me) fall down sumtimes..

high self-esteem.. XP

i cant sign in to msn for ard 10mins.. T_T

n the tagboard is up.. n new songs.. XP..

wah lao, i got update LAR.. read properly can.. "-_-

XP

i like tis pic blow can?.. ^.^


06 July 2007


wah kao!.. today is like so the bad lor.. T_T

i did terribly for all my exams.. when i mean terribly, its terrible enough to make me go emo.. *cuts hand hysterically* T_T

well i dun wANNA talk abt it.. T_T

math!.. ARGH!.. sry MR MANO!.. zzz.. he was my source of anger ventilation.. zzz..

nvm, post pics n off to dinner.. @_@

before that, a new list.. i will be making a list of those who label me as B.M.P (budak merepek), mat.. ;D















1st pic: being "emo" during math class.. "-_-


















2nd pic: i dun really have the mood to pose for the pic.. diam ar..


















3rd pic: is it me or my hair look *woots*.. XD











o.O its small alright.. XP

05 July 2007

*post editted at the end of post*

school was such a draaaaaagggggggggggggg today.. wth!..


i fell aslp during lessons, when i woke up, it was just a 5mins doze off.. like wth..

but i cant slp tite though, the smell of mcdonalds still in my mind.. "-_-

the best thing is, i woke up n half of the class was aslp.. zzz..

then MUIIIIIIIzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz had nothing to do and disturb me.. like wthell!.. @_@

oh yar, today quite sad.. u noe the game quadrapop in w900i.. quadrapop is similar to tetris.. well, i had outnumbered my frens record 2x.. it was ard 660k already my pts.. but it cant be saved unless u lose.. i plan to reach the million mark n lose the game

BUT!..

my h/p auto restart.. %@%@#!%!%!%@^@6

tat means my CURRENT SCORE of 660k ++ is GONE!.. *hysterical*

T_T

but its ok, im fine.. XP

its just a game.. n

G.E is great la seh.. a p2p game very soon, like wth.. no point starting..

if only MAPLE is p2p, yay.. ^.^



excerpt from song:
girl u need to come home, back to me..
coz girl u make it hard to breathe..

is tis song NICE-LICIOUS or wat?..


oh oh.. i forgot to add.. the 2007batch of O lvl takers in bts had an adam khoo workshop.. o.O omg, memories of us having it last year.. it was super fun la.. fill up my time, and seriously, the workshop did not take effect much on me.. XP

n i still wonder whether it will be repeated in bts till he K.O de.. sry to say, but sumting abt adam khoo, i dun really like him.. i mean there is sumting he seems to be hiding.. XP bleahs, its just me la.. "-_-

n wats with LEE.. @_@

04 July 2007

wah lao LEE!.. later i put tagboard la.. hahas.. XP

n im having problems fitting in sum of my pants.. o.O im fatty.. T_T

03 July 2007

^.^ home..

wanted to start on my project straight away after reaching home but it will be too dull for me.. "-_-

so i decided to clean MY KITCHEN!.. single-handedly.. ^.^ well, the result is satisfying.. clean here clean there clean everywhere.. o.O

i like n prefer to do chores over studies.. hahas.. im good at cleaning.. ^.^

* sum idiots would say tat im good at cleaning coz tats wat most black ppl do.. well, hope u are not an idiot.. =o im bein direct ba.. o.O

it took me ard an hour.. ^.^ now my kitchen looks neat tks to me.. yay.. O.o

well, i got nothing else to blog abt except that IM FINISHING SCHOLL 3HRS EARLIER TMRW.. hip hip hoorah.. ^.^

lets post sum random pics.. xP
































i like my hair.. seriously it really looks neat.. XP in the pic not really nice, n im goin to streak my hair.. but colours undecided.. o.O

mayb black n red, black n white o.O, black n blue, black n pink -_-"

black n red interest me recently.. o.O



EXCERPT FROM BLOG'S SONG:

I miss you so bad I cant sleep
I wish I knew where you could be
Another dude is replacing me
God this cant be happening

02 July 2007

good afternoon!.. well, i just reach home.. n u noe what.. i finish MY class early..

following S.I rules, i can finish my class whenever i want.. hahas.. xD

*S.I = Standard Izwan

erm, goin back to school after 3wks of "break" felt kinda awkward at first.. n OMG, i was EARLY.. by 3mins.. still early la.. c'mon, im proud ok..

my class decided to skip last 2 lessons, how united.. hahas.. n yat will be like mumbling to himself why do i get the ~disunited~ class.. lol.. xP

wait i rmbr yat saying to me, "wan, can u pls get along with ur class?.." erm, yat take back ur words.. lol.. had "physics" n as per normal, i was really blur.. need to read thru after this..

after school, accompany yat to fix his laptop.. zzz.. n afandy was there too.. as per normal, afandy have not change a single bit.. well i think he NEVER CHANGE before.. he still talk alot, talk nonsense, talk sumting tat is completely irrelevant.. zzz..

* w/o a tagboard is good, u can just insult anyone u want.. ^.^

well, after chatting with afandy.. off we went to bus stop.. n tks to yat i miss the bus.. zzz.. n CONFIRM its goin to be long.. T_T so i hail a cab n off to home.. LOL.. n yat will be like, "PEMALAS" or "FAT-GOLDEN-ASS"

hahas.. well its just me.. n u noe sumting, i realise myself i like to use the word "well" n i start to speak english more.. ^.^ n i learn math dot product while mapling.. erm, who says tat playing tis CHILDISH game wont learn anything?.. o.O

ok, im tired.. i want to have late lunch n off to my projects.. bb KKK + their victims..

XP

p.s: yat is goin to change his blogskin.. i was like "wow", the blog is dead.. zzz xD


n i LIKE my hair can.. it makes me HOT!.. lol.. high self eSTEAM.. XP ok i go off la.. bye..

01 July 2007

n im here to blog.. well been frequently updating blog.. XP

had religious class in the morning.. n u noe sumting.. me & PEITHOL are in the same school.. n the best thing is his class n mine start n end at the same time.. yay to peithol.. more SWEET TALK bubble tea coming our way..

n not fair.. his hse is near while my hse is far.. LOL.. n fathul is not KKK tat means he is the victim of KKK.. muahahahahaha.. xD

erm, chat inside bus with bro.. oh yar, got tis 1 victim of KKK talk sibeh loud inside the bus when i was slping.. the best thing is he sit beside me.. n u can IMAGINE how loud he can get.. i noe he is doing the business over the phone BUT do that victim of KKK need to talk DAMN LOUD abt his business plan.. wah kao eh.. lucky i felt slpy.. if not i throw money at his face!.. then i will say my fav. phrase..

fav phrase: i got money in the bank.. ^.^

ok, till here.. lets go out.. im bored.. kla, i go out.. bb.. ^.^


off-topic: i hate it when u throw those false accusations.. its as if i dun '4' u anymore..
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if we were to go on like this, i guess its better we end it..



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30 June 2007

im askibng myself rite now why did i log in to blogger when i got no idea wat to blog abt.. zzz

bb..

29 June 2007

yay.. new blogskin.. old one kinda bored already.. so readers, get adjusted to this for the next few mths or years before i change to a new blogskin.. XP

btw, currently i editted quite alot from my previous blogger skin..

erm, i removed tagboard, wishlist (wishful thinking "-.-), truefriendstest turn it into a link, no MAPLE STUFFS, still thinking of what new stuff to add..

tats all.. XP

n to those who just noe abt KKK or seems to noe abt KKK a long time ago, pls mind ur words abt it when u are in public.. dun make a bad impression of urself n for safety measures.. ^.^

25 June 2007

MATHEMATIC EXAMINATION!.. STARTS AT 0830, I REACH 0835.. "-_-

n when i see the questions, all i can think off is "???" argh!.. T_T hope can pass.. ^.^

yat did not attend the examination, didnt see him, cant reach him.. "-.-

n im thinking twice of what i want to say.. erm, nvm lets just say it..


imagine this scene, after goin thru the troubles unintentionally tat ur fren had caused, all he/she can say to u is "sorry".. do u accept their apologies?..
its a serious question, pls.. o.O n i got nothing to blog abt so lets post sum pics.. O.o

TO CAROLI: i wont retake ur test.. o.O
=S


tis is how when we "conquer" the edge of the playgrd to play with fire n makan.. fyi, if i turn my head to my right in tis pic, i can see my house.. zZzZzZzZz



BAD EDITTING.. I NOE.. ZZZ.. LAZY TO BOTHER ABT THE SMALL DETAILS..

n those who havnt see my msn dp clearly, tis is it.. well, its editted.. XP make the bg disappear.. ^.^ super cool heh.. XP n i wish i was in an art stream so i can draw sumting like tis.. o.O



A CONVERSATION BTWN ME N FATHUL, its in malay, the story goes like tis.. he tot i was hidayat.. i will make a DT (direct translation) of the conversation..

fathul: yat, can help me?..
izwan: huh?..

fathul: can i borrow ur laptop after friday prayers?.. plz..

izwan: fathul, tis is wan.. "-_-

izwan: wth u mistaken ur frens..
izwan: zzz..

fathul: since when yat offline..
fathul: ************************


i was LOL-ing when i rmbr this conversation..

24 June 2007

in ard 35hrs from now, i will be having my exams..

revision status: 1% done.. preferably none to be honest coz i cant rmbr a single thing.. T_T

wanted to chiong today BUT went to P.S n Suntec with yat.. walk walk awhile..

reach home ard 4pm.. thought of revising BUT me family went out to go MAKAN!.. ^.^ mix emotions coz i was like

"oh c'mon not now.. but for black pepper steak i dun mind skipping studies for a day.. but my studies are impt.."

i was so hesitant with my decision tat i saw myself at the MAKAN PLACE happily munching away my meal.. zzz

so reach home ard 10++, watch dvd bro bought till 11++, near 12.. tot of studying BUT its midnite.. its time to slack n slp.. zzz

so here i am, seeing SATURDAY been put to waste for not studying but its ok.. FOOD replace my studying so i dun really mind.. ^.^

but im expecting "excellent" results when i get back my results.. zzz..

till here.. im online, my status is busy but chat-able.. "-_-

22 June 2007

from 1.48 to 1.38, the famous hand movement originated by yung joc.. n damn i love the move.. rofl.. XP



p.s: SINCE MY BRO COMPLAIN CANT STOP THE MUSIC AT MY BLOG TO WATCH VIDEOS, I HAVE PUT A NEW FUNCTION THERE SO U CAN PAUSE/PLAY THE MUSIC.. ^.^

20 June 2007




i want my vanessa hudgens, can?.. pls?.. T_T

she LOOKS so chinese?.. o.O n cute..

n this video will make u guys LOL..


19 June 2007

QUESTIONS OF QUESTIONS

Why do you bother asking a question that would undoubtedly be read as a statement and then replied to as a statement without using the proper base of answering as stated earlier, this is not acceptable and I wonder why you are not undoing your wrongdoing without reversing the indifferent values of your unceremonious question statement without undoing the statement of which you posted earlier and tagged a question mark (?) to the back and understanding this means that you know that I knew that you'd know that I would know that you would post something like this so that you could reply to the thought that I thought that you thought that I thought that you would post what I thought you would post and while still thinking, I think that you should think about the thought that I thought that you thought when we were talking?


ROFL + LIMAO + LOL = TAK BOLEH ANGKAT.. ZZZ

DIRECT TRANSLATION: CANT BE CARRIED.. "-_-

18 June 2007

to those who are bored with the world wide web = www

pls visit this web n get keylogged of ur comp n all of ur accts.. XP

http://friendster.awesomewebspace.com

*NOTE: THIS WEB IS REALLY DANGEROUS, IT LOOKS LIKE FRIENDSTER, PARDON, IT IS EXACTLY THE SAME LAYOUT AS FRIENDSTER.. EXCEPT FOR THE WEB ADDRESS..
JUST REMINDING THE PEOPLE OUT THERE, PLS DO NOT ENTER ANY PERSONAL INFORMATION TO THIS WEB OR www.goggle.com

THE WEB PURPOSE IS TO KEYLOGG USERS OF THEIR ACCT COZ EVRY ACCT THAT BEEN LOG IN BY A COMPUTER HAS BEEN STORED INTERNALLY.. NO MATTER WHATEVER THE ACCT IS; friendster, hotmail, dota, maple, c&c, etc..


ok enough of reminders.. ^^
today, sleep slack n didnt revise.. wat a way to waste my time..

n i like these pics.. XP

http://i188.photobucket.com/albums/z185/herwandez2/Untitled-1.png
(copy paste the link.. its made by photoshop.. XP )
(dun tell me u dun noe how to copy w/o the right-click function)



17 June 2007

i got no idea wat to blog abt.. XP

erm, so post pics just to make it as a post n sum "lil" stuff tat happened in the weeks..



wo de bro.. ^_^ sssssssss



for "sssss" him, i got this.. o.O



n i miss taking pics of self.. XP



this one nicer.. ^.^



n the headgear + my hair is ^.^



tis is DONE by me.. ^_^



all PLAYGROUND PICS are taken on evry SATURDAY during 7+ till before 12am.. XP



sum GREASE lightning?.. o.O

PS: tis is disgusting -> more on me.. LOL.. dun think differently abt me k.. im still me..

SMALL FONTS, lol, but still readable.. "-_-

see the chinese guy the last pic.. nyahahaha.. was congratulaed by him after completing my first PORN.. "-_-

i despise porn niways..

the PORN was disgusting disgusting disgusting all the way.. thru the end of the video, i LOL.. seriously its really funny at the ending.. o.O those who want to noe why, pls find me.. XP

ok till here, im off to sumwhere.. ^.^

n the song at my BLOG is smex.. ^_^ love the lyrics.. woots..

We in the bed like

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

We in the bed like

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

XP

11 June 2007

TONIGHT IS OFFICIALLY INTO THE SOCCER COMPETITION!..




since she talk abt me, lets fill up my blog abt..


CAROLI
firstly, shes REALLY KIUUUUT.. lol.. n yar, she miss my presence.. *those sarcastic ppl who think my presence is unavailable u are an idiot*
ok back to CAROLI.. she miss me.. lol.. im touch ^^ n to those who miss me im touch too its just tat i cant be bother to bring myself out of the house to hang out XP
ok back to CAROLI.. miss her shorty-ness n its been so long since i "hate" u.. lol.. we will meet up soon with all our class!.. ^_^

n i use red for ur name cause u said to me before it was sm3xy.. lol..

09 June 2007

yo yo peeps.. so went soccer-ing but did not have the mood to play coz grp of bengs find trouble with us?.. -_-"

i just reach the court and things WAS bad.. so lost the mood to play soccer, fool ard.. -_-"

then we decided to chill near my house.. chit chat with the amk-ians.. dun feel left out now eventhough im not from yckss.. coz we bonded well..

n u see the chinese guy beside me, he want to cater chalet.. woots.. for yckss members n im specially invited.. hahas.. but the thing still pending due to our availability..

possible scenes of chalet: burn food, drunken ppl, PS2, FUN!.. ^^

took alot of pics n funny videos after soccering but lazy to post all ba..

erm, thinking of taking silat or muay thai.. for better self protection n mayb a lil bit of abuse of the skills ^_^

will think abt it..





08 June 2007

yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo..

NYP & SP is the only school that have their test after the 2 wks break.. wt-fish is this.. T_T we shud suffer first then ENJOY!.. sad..

n the futsal thing, perish.. dun talk abt it utterly disappointed..

n im off to bed now.. i cant log in to do e-quiz.. ++ sians, sobs

nites..


n the shiny shiny thingy at my posting part not working T_T

06 June 2007



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ZZZ IF ITS LAME FLAME ME
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05 June 2007

you know what you do to me.. ^_^

i like this song.. nice ba ^_^

berg the video is a l-ing-ol experience.. hahas..

N I WANNA SLP ALREADY.. WHY SO SLEEPY.. ARGH!..

04 June 2007

n my stomach cramps like siao..

learning how to photoshop.. any idea where to get alot of tips and hints to easy usage of photoshop..

@_@ i think i did a great report.. pls let me score good marks ^_^

n next week i will be working.. hope i can manage my time well to study-work-play all at the same time..

WHERE IS THE FUTSAL LETTER?.. *CRYS HYSTERICALLY*

03 June 2007

argh!.. really really beat out.. need the holidays come fast.. 1 more week of chiong-ing in school!..

report report report..

hope will start the new week right!.. ^_^

n wheres my bro?.. im craving for KFC.. omg faster pls..

n 6hrs 23mins more to go..

02 June 2007

*yawns* i wanna slp.. bb.. -______-"

best update of the year.. ^_^