12 November 2006

yay!.. its my birthday.. im 16!..

bluek!.. i dun care what u all think.. its my birthday..

drop me testi!.. hahas!..

had an advanced bday party..

went vivo..

now surprise..

hahas!..

cant wait.. =)

ok.. since its considered my DAY, i want to make bday wishes!..

=)

i dun care what u all think.. bluek!..

MY BIRTHDAY WISH!..
1) cherish my love ones more n more.. =)
2) create more jokes..
3) same school as f.y. =)
4) improve soccer.. to a much more higher standard!..
5) murah rezeki =))
6) be in a very LONG relationship..
when i mean LONG this time, i mean it.. it seems so stupid to have short ones.. its either me or the opposite to blame.. but i wont be desperate to search for a new one.. i dun care what u ppl think.. hahas!..
7) improve manipulation tactics.. hahas!..
WHO HAVE WISH ME
1) sugi0
2) niharo
3) dalila
4) TWZ
5) yazid trendy wanker
6) boboy
7) fathul is belating it.. -____-"
8) n the list goes on.. hahas!..
6hrs at Vivocity = total greatness.. hahas!..

pics from Vivo.. =)






f.y.i pose





ready for take off..





yat semang.. hahas!..





pls enter.. hahas!..





no lifeguard..





they see me mowing my front lawn

11 November 2006




solarise Fathul n me.. hahas!..





f.y.i craziness..





look.. there's an astronaut in the sky..





fathul white mine brown.. hahas..





posing for the toilet..





me!.. hahas!..





damn!.. why did i close my eyes.. hahas..





fathul asking for more.. hahas!..





i love the teddy.. argh!..

hahas..

09 November 2006

Your Birthdate: November 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.
You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.
Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.
You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.

Your strength: Your charm

Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics

Your power color: Indigo

Your power symbol: Four leaf clover

Your power month: December
oh sheesh!.. my weakness is extreme manipulation tactics..
what the hell is that suppose to mean..
but whatever it is.. i must improve on it.. hahas!..

06 November 2006

alter-ego: do u noe the difference between HIGHEST COMMON FACTOR and LOWEST COMMON MULTIPLE?..

izwan: yar.. i do.. why?..

alter-ego: do u think u got right for ur LCM during math paper 1?..

izwan: erm.. yar..

*recall back*

izwan: ARGH!.. f.u.c.k friends u can keep.. f.u.c.k friends u can keep..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I HATE MYSELF RITE NOW!.. argh!..

sheesh!.. gone marks.. =(

aiyo.. stupid la..

nvr mind.. must persevere..

ok.. short update..

do u noe the song hurt by christina aguilera?..

i gotta admit it.. i love the song.. it can bring me to tears ok.. not lying..

im not EMO-shits.. its touching.. she sings it with u noe.. passion bla bla bla..

urgh!.. sad sad listen to the song..

='(

05 November 2006








ok.. open hse ended at 1.00am.. guest leave at 5.30am..
-_______________-"

nvr mind.. once a year.. =))

yar, tks for coming.. did not have the time to invite loads of ppl..

sorry..

tks fathul, yat for coming early.. not forgetting fadhuli, irsyad, hafidz, alif, adha, suhadan for coming too..

tks for finishing the food.. not wasted.. =))

erm, ok la.. till here..

need to start revising..

03 November 2006

hello!.. first of all i want to thank FATHUL for another broken nail..

='(

hahas!..

i hate it ler.. both my toes is 'dead'.. i cant kick a ball.. urgh!..
my right toe is torn.. left toe, broken nail..

urgh!.. wth.. itchy ok to wear shoes,,

then then.. play soccer sum more.. -___-"

n i nvr go to mr connor's open hse..

cause cause my rumah terbuke is tmrw too.. =))


n yar.. which COLLEGE shud i go?..

east or west..

if my results really sux.. =P


erm, ok la.. till here..

=))
hello!.. first of all i want to thank FATHUL for another broken nail..

='(

hahas!..

i hate it ler.. both my toes is 'dead'.. i cant kick a ball.. urgh!..
my right toe is torn.. left toe, broken nail..

urgh!.. wth.. itchy ok to wear shoes,,

then then.. play soccer sum more.. -___-"

n i nvr go to mr connor's open hse..

cause cause my rumah terbuke is tmrw too.. =))


n yar.. which COLLEGE shud i go?..

east or west..

if my results really sux.. =P


erm, ok la.. till here..

=))

02 November 2006

erm, like the lyrics to the song.. =)


BLUE OCTOBER - HATE ME

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you




And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

31 October 2006

tmrs BIO!.. why does it need to be BIO?.. why?.. sheesh!..

im so WEAK in bio.. ok.. not weak.. i SUX in it.. =(

my prelims for BIO was TREMENDOUSLY TERRIBLE!.. =(

gosh.. i want to pass ler.. how?..

revise from just ytd.. n i still got a handful of chaps to cover.. im slow..

=(

erm.. but one gd thing abt BIO is that i can have hope of adding weight..

evry 2 hrs of BIO, i eat a meal.. =)

stress..

oh yar.. i like the lyrics to the song NEVER FAR BEHIND - ALY & AJ..

=))

26 October 2006

4 more days..

sheesh!..

shud i focus on BIO?..

erm.. is there any way to avoid careless mistakes.. after tons n tons of practice.. its the same mistakes bein repeated..
-_______________-"

wth..

nvr mind.. must open eyes extra big..

oh yar.. i have avoided msn since 7 hrs ago.. i need to make it 24hrs.. at least a day..

ouh.. anybody have the song 'to be loved..' by PAPA ROACH..

can send me thru mail?..

erm.. till here..


3RD DAY OF RAYA

24 October 2006

ok.. i admit it.. im ZHI LIAN at sum events only.. i admit it!..

especially SPECIAL EVENTS!.. e.g: GRAD DAY, HARI RAYA!..

hahas!.. =))


sum of the pics of me family..

me n beng.. hahas!.. tak tahu malu!..


i dun care!.. i like this pic..

my own pic.. hahas!..

yayness!.. me n bro completed TIME CRISIS 4!.. sheesh!.. so the difficult n tiring ler..

cant wait for its release.. is a must buy game..

but i havn complete TIME CRISIS 3.. ='(

im back.. hahas!..

thats it.. hahas!.. =)

sheesh!.. graduation fun fun.. photo-frenzy.. 4E2 06' rox to the core la seh..

hahas!.. great la seh..

ouh.. i like hui li speech.. nice nice.. hahas!..

esp on Mr Lew.. straight to the face..

we dun uds ur jokes.. hahas!..

i cant stand laughing la seh..

=))

ouh.. O levels ard the corner n im busy with laziness..

hahas..

sheesh!..

my fren challenge me to score 14 pts or less.. sheesh!.. i must score less..

even though he is working already.. n he is ard 26++

still need to beat him.. hahas..

stress!.. argh!..

erm..

graduates.. tks for the memories.. tks for everything.. really appreciate it.. the sec 1 - sec 4 memories.. tks much much.. =)

haiz.. gonna miss bts.. ms choo, mdm fawziyah n the list goes on..

to my enemy / haters / old frens / new frens / [graduates]

good luck for ur O levels..


n last but not least..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!.. WEE!.. =)

YAYNESS..
HAPPY WITH TEARS..
N SAD WITH JOY
SHEESH!.. <3

21 October 2006

saturday is today-is-the-tomorrow-ithink-abt-yesterday.. =)

few more days to raya.. then been spoil by mt retake.. =(

only this yr.. haiz.. i still havn start my intensive revision..

sheesh!.. im gonna die of lack-knowledg-ing..

oh shud i make new specs.. its gonna be my 3rd spec this yr if i do make one.. first one break perferctly in half.. then 2nd one, i think the degree is not suitable ler..


maybe today[sat] go break fast with my frens.. last time before we celebrate raya.. sheesh!.. first time this raya, only bought one colour..

feels awkward but kind to think of it.. budget la..

=)

ouh.. z610i.. very the cute.. it comes in BLUE, BLACK OR PINK..
i like the pink one.. nice nice.. doesnt mean i like pink it shows im gay..

19 October 2006

hello!.. im back!..

friggin tired.. practical was disturbing.. bio seems troublesome.. physics!.. urgh!.. need to change metres!.. wth!..

3 marks.. gone.. =(

wth!.. padan muke aku.. =(

10 days to MT retake.. n i feel awkward retaking it again.. shameonme ler.. =(

GRADUATION!.. cant wait.. nxt week.. yayness!.. 1e2 03' photo take.. =))
whose idea huh?..

n i HATE ppl whose name have the initial "I".. i mean the first INITIAL is "I"

i can say i hate myself.. these ppl including me.. has a habit.. its true.. try to observe the "I"

get to know them well.. n they have this freakin habit which is so weird..

i got to admit it.. i got sumting in me i hate a lot but cant remove it..

sheesh!..

sian eh.. i MISS a lot of things!..

LIST OF 'MISS' THINGS
~ stoning..
i miss stoning.. its been so long since for me doin nothing n watch the world past by.. the beauty of stoning.. bleahs..

~ soccer..
its been ard a month since i kick a soccer ball.. u noe how long it is.. its so the long.. argh!.. how how?.. nvr mind.. must resist..

~ guitar!..
the string shud be 'sort' already.. its been ages since the last time i touch it..
so the strange..

~ reading!..
it may sound weird.. but i miss reading!.. good novels.. short stories.. not reader digest.. i need to shop at the library.. sian eh.. so awkward not bringing a story-book inside my bag.. ='(

~ slacking
so long nvr 'lepak' ler.. sian eh.. nvr mind.. wait for me.. hahas!.. just few more wks to go.. =)


u, i miss u.. why are we so the very apart?..


~ lessons
so long.. i wish i can have more humans n math.. =)


sheesh!.. business need science.. i hope it doesnt play a real big part in it..
i want accountancy.. can SP pls increase the points?..
12 pts is like.. u noe, better go JC even if its L1R4..


oh oh.. cant wait for AMK shopping centre.. it looks similarly to harbourfront.. undergrd inter?.. cool cool.. hahas..

hope its good good.. cant wait.. impatient me..


yay!.. my sweet 16 goin to have a party!.. hahas!.. even if its a long way to go..

whats so sweet abt this yr?.. hmph!.. more to sweet-sour.. =P

oh!.. FADHLI!.. biol ke pe kat tag kau!.. hahas!..




my letter to you will be sincerly sweet.. =)

02 October 2006

MY UNINTENDED MOTIVATOR

LEE CHUAN..
did i spell his name right

sounds odd right.. but recalling back 2-3 mths ago, i saw this guy [lee chuan] mugging at study corner.. he was really focus..

i thought to myself this guy must be siao ler.. i mean o lvl still far away but mug already..

but kind to think of it, isn't he at advantage?..

sheesh!.. i gotta start now.. its 16days to PRACTICAL, 27days to MT retake, 29days to start of O lvls, 40days to my b'day and 48days to final paper..

time flies by so fast..

MUST START!.. everyone is improving tremendously.. im still relaxing..

MATH PAPER 1 sux big time.. 12 marks gone, carelessness..

but im thankful to score high marks.. but i wanted to top my class ler..

='(

gosh!.. everything pass by so fast.. its been 9-10days fasting.. so fast.. can time stop for a moment?.. take a break..

NO they cant.. n i cant take a break!.. argh!..

love ignored me so i can study.. i think its for my own good..

argh!.. i want to help out my classmates n friends.. succeed together gether.. hahas!..

ok.. im gonna skip school.. hopefully my mum allow me to.. i noe i did terribly for science n mt.. n im not brave enough to face these fears.. got to admit it..

unfortunately, it will pop in front of my face sooner..

and im stress!.. yes.. now i can say..

im officially STRESS!..

argh!.. studies + bills = stubills!.. argh!..

h/p bill is killing me.. argh!..

i dun want to get an F9 for my prelims.. i already flop my mock..

this could be my last entry till O lvl starts.. i hope i can endure the pain of not blogging.. hahas!..

CAROLI is my example.. been barred using the comp.. sumbody barred me from using the comp.. but no one can.. its my COMP!.. argh!.. sheesh!..

IZWAN!.. u want SUCCESS!.. i cant spell SUCCESS w/o a 'U'
that 'U' is me!..

gosh!.. im officially STRESS!..

did i mention this again?..

sheesh!..

oh yar.. im not cuming to skool tmrw.. my mum just allow me to skip skool.. wee..
=) she understands me..

hahas!..

i feel this is my longest blog entry.. hahas!..

oh oh!.. i want to thank 4E3 malay ppl.. not racist.. tks for the invitation..
really appreciate it.. hopefully i can attend.. =)

ok.. its time to go.. i cant stop.. i want to keep on typing.. but IZWAN..

-P-E-R-S-E-R-V-E-R-E-

argh!.. ok ok.. i will go..

GOOD LUCK FOR O LEVEL EXAMINATIONS!..


hopefully this entry will last long at the top page..

27 September 2006

I CANT STUDY BIOLOGY!..
am i in love?..
no no no
maybe
argh!.. math really kill..

i like math to much..

till i forget there's an examination call GEOGRAPHY!..

i need a miracle to pass my geog!..

i dun want to fail my prelims..

but i noe i fail one ler.. MT!..

probability.. 99:1

GEOGRAPHY, BE NICE TO ME TOMORROW!..







25 September 2006

argh!.. im down with a fever.. sore throat.. eee, so terrible.. hate it..

i starting to get sick of everything..

studies, friends, same stupid jokes.. really get on my nerves..

am i STRESS UP?.. i guess i am..

haiz..

u noe whats the shocking part abt today, i cant do QN 1 OF LAST YEAR PRELIMS PAPER(MATHS 2)..

U NOE HOW FREAKING SHOCK I AM!..

i am still shock!..

haiz..really regret..

serve me right for not studying D&T!.. i deserve to fail.. damn.. i just did terribly.. i dun even bother to check.. =(

haiz.. i guess i need a distraction to remind me of studies.. like sumting which is so appealing..

MSN?..

am i giving excuses?..

=(

21 September 2006

oh shucks.. im getting sick.. not sick of studies or exams.. real sick..

damn sickening ler.. =(

tmrw physics.. cant revise.. migraine.. my head numbs terribly..

Math Paper 1 today was damn strange n weird.. dun ask me why.. its just too strange..

S.S. dead.. chapters i studied did not appeared at all.. out of my sight.. how cool.. *dots*

ok.. i must avoid msn.. its really a big D-istraction..

hopefully i can avoid it till end of Os.. =)


erm.. friday.. YAT KECHIK b'day.. thats it.. his really gonna get a beating of a lifetime.. sweet 16.. wee.. =)

Scheldule 4 tmrw:
~ 0800-0915 physics paper

~ 0915-1000 meet fathul.. study.. =)

~ 1000-1200 study study study..

~ 1200-1300 go mosque..

~ 1300-1400 friday prayers

~ 1400-1430 beating of a lifetime..

~ 1430-1900 soccer.. wee.. =)

~ 1900-2030 reach home..

~ 2030-2130 clean up..

~ 2130-???? sleep.. =)

must avoid Mr Msn..

20 September 2006

Love, is a Flower & U, its only Seed..


=)



it keep repeating in my head ler..

=P

19 September 2006

prelims is right ard the corner.. gonna kick start the prelims on wed with english..
im not prepared, i guess..

oh, i found out.. SOCIAL STUDIES growth of nations will be coming out for prelims.. =))

well, today did not attend school.. had a self-utilised holiday.. hehe.. =)

haiz.. everything is coming to an end soon.. no more secondary life..

sad.. bad memories, good memories.. gonna miss BTSS.. esp the teachers n students..

oh yar.. i feel like closing my blog.. i dun noe why ler.. =(

43days to Os.. not a lonely september after all.. books accompany me.. =)

ok.. i hate it whenever the thought of leaving btss struck in my mind..

MY TARGET FOR O LEVELS:
~ ENGLISH ---> distinction

~ MT ----------> B3/distinction

~ MATHS ----> A1!.. die die must get..

~ HUMANs. --> distinction.. to make ms choo proud.. =))

~ SCIENCE ---> B3.. so as to prove mdm tan wrong whenever she give me that "no hope face." hahas..

~ D&T ---------> distinction.. hopefully my coursework dont score terribly..

~ ART ---------> A...... -A-B-S-E-N-T- halfway thru drop..

TARGET FOR L1R4: [SINGLE DIGIT][ 5-9]

TARGET FOR LIR5: x<14

16 September 2006

hello ppl.. just got home.. wee!.. =)
btw, want to blog for a while..

the AKLTG talk we had today was great.. instructor Gary was hilarious as Adam.. hahas.. cant tahan see him do the Adam pose at the board.. hahas!..

ok ok.. kinda rejuvenate my motivation.. but the night spoil it ler.. got home ard 8pm then went out.. and now im at home.. hahas..

i only study for a while.. physics..

my bro, me n fren had a "quarrel" on nuclear fusion lor.. crappy.. hahas..

ok, back to AKLTG.. when the talk start to commence, i kept recalling back what happen during the 3-days motivational workshop.. i rmbr everything that happenned..

when i mean everything..

i mean, from the day 1 till day 3.. what happen after day 1, before day 1.. EVERYTHING

oh shucks.. fond memories.. hahas.. =')

to be frank, kinda miss her.. i dun noe.. i just felt it lor.. out of all a sudden, the memories rush back in my mind and i kinda miss her..

hahas.. mayb only for today or that stupid ava rm with the seating arrangement like that.. hahas..

ok.. till here..

nites ppl..

13 September 2006

GOT THIS IDEA FROM SHEN HSUAN!..

from today, is 49 days to Os..
must chiong study.. evrytime i visit my blog i see this thing n it will motivate me.. =)
hahas.. =P

12 September 2006

RYAN CABRERA - SHE'S


She looks into my eyes
And Im alive again
And when she says goodbye
I just die again
Thats when my restlessness begins
Please dont let it win
Im so tired again
And underneath the haze
One thing still remains the same


Shes the only love Ive known
And now shes gone away
Shes the life that brought me to the edge
Will I ever love again?



She walks into my life
And my world is still
She reached into my soul
And all my doubts were killed
That’s when my loneliness subsided
She gave me the will
I could fight it
But nothing can erase
The one thing that remains the same


Shes the only love Ive known
And now shes gone away
Shes the life that brought me to the edge
Will I ever love again?


So just tell me what I should do
I left everything for you
And I can’t hardly breathe
Cause I know I lost you from my world
From my…


Shes the only love I’ve known
And now shes gone away
Shes the life that brought me to the edge
Will I ever love again?

09 September 2006

haiz.. today can say suay ler..

on the way home.. bus broke down.. then i was like urgh!.. want to slp also cant.. got a lot of commuters.. wth.. =(

then then reach home ard 8.. kinda late huh..
2 monitor lizard hangs ard my neighbourhood.. kinda cool though.. big big and cute cute.. hahas..

cute?.. siao.. bleahs..

oh oh.. btw.. i like chris brown say goodbye video.. nice nice..

esp the dance.. so smooth..

hahas.. =)

haiz.. i want a new guitar.. an electric i mean.. so ppl out there whos reading my blog, pls pity me and buy for me one.. hahas..

oh shucks.. im thick skin ler.. hahas.. =P

oh yar, i learn new words..

"DOTE"

hahas.. now then i noe is "manjakan"

=)

n to u who ate pudding just now, bleahs, tks for the info abt neoprints.. hahas..

im inexperienced like u say.. hehe.. =P

thank u.. =))

08 September 2006

argh!..

im prone to attacks esp from my brother..

since i shave my head, he keeps headbutting it..

ouch!.. help me!..

argh!..

=P

OMG!.. hilary duff is freaking hot in this video..

hahas.. in love with her.. *dots*




Play With Fire
By Hilary Duff

05 September 2006


=)
SP was great.. i want to go SCHOOL OF BUSINESS!.. its freaking cool..
but sian eh.. cut off points ard 12..
*dots*
getting 20 is like damn difficult for me.. sum more need to pass humanities..

urgh!.. nvr mind.. i must try try the hard hard.. must get the least number of points.. the less the merrier..

btw, the token was given to me from Nabeel.. i dun noe how many he make it.. but tks man.. =))


oh btw, i miss my hair.. =(

02 September 2006

MY HEART - IRWANSYAH FT ACHA


disini kau dan aku terbiasa bersama
here you and me always together


menjalani kasih sayang bahagia ku dengan mu
loving one another happy to be with you


pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah
have you ever dreamt of the sweetest day


ku ukir nama kita berdua disini surga kita
i carve our names together here, our heaven


bilakah kita mencintai yang lain mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
when we love others maybe our heart will realise


sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayang ku akan hilang
no matter how hurtful it is my love wont fade away


if u love somebody could we be this strong

i will fight to win our love will conquer all

i wouldn't risk my love even just one night

our love will stay in my heart..


aww.. touching.. hahas.. erm, who got the movie of this song?.. I WANT TO WATCH!..

copyright the song thingy from zulfah.. hahas.. *dots*

01 September 2006

kinda bump into it on the web.. quite nice..
you made me fall for you hard and fast
the past was such a blast
we left each other and it made me cry
i didn't want to see you go but I said goodbye
i found out the truth
i thought you were a jerk
you filled me up with lies and hurt
now I have to say goodbye
before I hurt myself more inside
i have to go and look to the future with out you in it
so goodbye for now
i'll be seeing you later on
haiz.. im really saddened with my results ler.. =(

31 August 2006

MS GWEN & MS CHOO 'SHOWING OFF' THE CERTIFICATE OF WINNING.. YAYNESS!.. =)


OK.. NOW OUR CLASS PHOTOS..

4E2 OF 2006..





LAST BUT NOT LEAST.. MS CHOO'S SPEECH..

NOT SO CLEAR LER.. *dots*


*4E2 MS CHOO'S DAY CELEBRATIONS*

MS CHOO'S TEACHER'S DAY CAKE.. CLASS CONTRIBUTED TO BUY FOR HER.. =))

NICE NICE.. SPECIALLY FOR OUR DEAREST TEACHER.. HAHAS.. *dots*

MS CHOO!.. DEAREST FORM TUTOR.. HAIZ.. SHE GOIN TO MISS THE BBQ PARTY.. CANT U POSTPONE IT?.. URGH!..
N YAYNESS!.. 4E2 WON THE SHOP & SAVE BBQ THINGY!.. *smile*
MAINLY THANKS TO GWEN!.. =))

29 August 2006

haiz.. i cant wait to be out of BTSS.. its neither i hate the school nor the students.. its just me..

kind to think of it.. i was a goody goody nerdy nerdy boy when transfer to this school.. then i tremendously change into sumone new..

i dun hate my new self.. its just that i miss the old me..

free from trouble..
free from stress..

free from freedom..

FREEDOM!.. mayb this hav change me alot.. sian eh.. i misused my freedom..

i guess im spoil.. i dun blame others..

i spoil myself..

haiz..

i cant wait to start a new life.. new school.. new steping stones in life.. but my record still stays.. =(

kind to think of it..

i regret what i have done before..

PAST, PRESENT..

haiz, i hate myself for this..



my fake smile shows it all..

28 August 2006

haiz.. i feel so left out in my studies..

im losing my motivation day after day..

=(

27 August 2006

argh!.. i havn sleep.. damn.. so tired..

if i sleep, its considered a disaster.. coz once i sleep i wll wake up ard 4pm.. i must not sleep..

i want to finish all my homework coursework housework whatever work by this evening..

then i can get my sleep.. =)

and i just finish numbering the pages of my folio..

yayness.. =)

but only 57 pages.. haiz.. =(

so little..

now, im online with 3 ppl.. all are asleep.. *dots*

now.. need to wait till 9am.. for the stationary shop to open.. then can buy sketch pad to do art n evaluation for D&T..

i survive on ONE CUP OF COFFEE!.. that is considered like luck.. coz i usually depends on large number of cups.. =P

IZWAN!.. JIA YOU!.. U CAN DO IT!..

scheldule for next week:
MONDAY - HAND IN DNT FOLIO COMPLETED AND BINDED

TUESDAY - M.T PRELIMS AND PHYSICS TEST (ELECTROMAGNERIC INDUCTION)

WEDNESDAY - HAND IN ART COURSEWORK

THURSDAY - TEACHER's DAY CELEBRATIONS

FRIDAY - TEACHER'S DAY (FINALLY CAN REST MY NEUROLOGY FOR A WHILE)

busy scheldule..

cmon IZWAN, another few wks to PRELIMS..

then FASTING MONTH, it will make me nore stronger at heart..

then HARI RAYA, CELEBRATIONS.. not much ler.. coz study mah.. FORGIVENESS WITHIN ONE ANOTHER.. =)

then O LEVELS, im gonna SCORE WELL!.. i must PASS!..

no more distractions IZWAN.. FOCUS!..

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh God.. isnt there any easy way to be good in Math?..

haiz.. evry time i see Math teachers, i envy them.. i dun noe why..

honestly, i want to be like them.. i mean not a Math teacher..

but have their intelligence in Math.. they are so freakin SMART!..

i mean all the formulas they can remember very wel..

argh!..

im just stress i guess..

66 days..

and my MT prelim is next tuesday..

oh shucks..

26 August 2006

AT LAST I CAN GO IN BLOGGER..

*dots*

ytd.. fill up most of my time with revision.. n blogger..

i make millions of attempt to enter blogger.. in the end i gave up.. waste ard half an hour..

encounting, now its 7 blogs that i help to make..

yayness.. can i be proud?.. =))

im helpful..

hey, i like my blog. .hahas..

read the scrolling thingy.. more abt me.. =))

before i go..

I WANT TO MEET RYAN CABRERA.. HAHAS.. =)