Anyway, it's been 4days ever since that day. It has been 5 nights I haven't hear her voice. To those who are still at lost, I just ended... hmm, how do I put it. The book to my platonic relationship with the girl has come to an end. I don't know if it was mutual or I got dumped. ):
How do I feel? Dejected. Didn't know what spark me to hold on to it but it just didn't work out the way I play it out in my head. I knew for quite awhile that it wont work out but love make people blind? Yeah, sadly it make me blind temporarily. My best friend had nothing nice to say in the looks department for her case but I told him that has not been the issue.
After sending her home, that last forehead kiss, I walked away quickly. That part of me wanted to convince her to stay but there are tell-tale signs even if she stays, things will just end badly. Maybe it ring a bell or two when the saying "Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things."
I was doing well moving on when she texted me asking how I was after I self-skidded. I sort of "melted" knowing that she bothered to ask my well-being. After that, I realized that it is not doing me any good. I was on the verge of moving on and her text just came in, and I had a 180degree turn of attitude. I consult friends and a motherly colleague that I truly treasure and I had to do something to help me in moving on.
And after going through her Instagram and Facebook for one final time, I decided to delete her off both accounts. That sense of relief is there, you know knowing that she won't pop up in my news feed. For Facebook wise, it's hard to avoid. Be it I delete her off, both of us share the same friends and she is bound to pop up in my news feed one way or another. Photo tagging, comments, etceteras.
Well, God Willing I will move on. A friend told me, doesn't matter if she move on or she got a new boyfriend first because it is her gain and not your loss. Your part of the story with her is done and you should be moving on. Makes a hell lot of sense. Time will tell if I am able to move on. This is like no other flings/relationship I had mainly because I knew I gave all I had but it just didn't work out.
Le sigh. End of Chapter.
Another end of chapter was yours truly is ORD. This happy moment is marred by the above chapter.
Sad notes aside, I got to start living and build my body back up. I have been neglecting my personal well-being for quite awhile now.
I better start moving on, I better start living life, I better start being happy, I better start to be fit.
In the wise words of 'Ghost'
Let's do this.
After sending her home, that last forehead kiss, I walked away quickly. That part of me wanted to convince her to stay but there are tell-tale signs even if she stays, things will just end badly. Maybe it ring a bell or two when the saying "Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things."
I was doing well moving on when she texted me asking how I was after I self-skidded. I sort of "melted" knowing that she bothered to ask my well-being. After that, I realized that it is not doing me any good. I was on the verge of moving on and her text just came in, and I had a 180degree turn of attitude. I consult friends and a motherly colleague that I truly treasure and I had to do something to help me in moving on.
And after going through her Instagram and Facebook for one final time, I decided to delete her off both accounts. That sense of relief is there, you know knowing that she won't pop up in my news feed. For Facebook wise, it's hard to avoid. Be it I delete her off, both of us share the same friends and she is bound to pop up in my news feed one way or another. Photo tagging, comments, etceteras.
Well, God Willing I will move on. A friend told me, doesn't matter if she move on or she got a new boyfriend first because it is her gain and not your loss. Your part of the story with her is done and you should be moving on. Makes a hell lot of sense. Time will tell if I am able to move on. This is like no other flings/relationship I had mainly because I knew I gave all I had but it just didn't work out.
Le sigh. End of Chapter.
Another end of chapter was yours truly is ORD. This happy moment is marred by the above chapter.
Sad notes aside, I got to start living and build my body back up. I have been neglecting my personal well-being for quite awhile now.
I better start moving on, I better start living life, I better start being happy, I better start to be fit.
In the wise words of 'Ghost'
Let's do this.