been quite a while since i last update.. erm.. quite alot of happenings..

firstly, the taiwan earthquake.. net connection was kinda pathetic.. so did not touch the comp.. n u noe what.. sum ppl are damn heartless sia.. blaming taiwan bcoz of no internet connection, sum more can say abt the dead eh.. =(

ok, whatever.. past already..

YESTERDAY 29/12
met k.b at sportslink to see he work while waiting for caroli n others.. then went collect pay.. after that met fathul n chill at library while waiting for friday prayers.. the others went to watch nite at museum.. ok, me fathul n yat went escape.. coz got offer n its MY FIRST TIME goin there.. i noe.. pathetic.. but i dun like the queue ler.. sibeh long.. n inverter was not working.. =.=''

went quite a number of rides.. go kart was long.. so did not went.. went to haunted house.. u noe what.. its not scary.. mayb bcoz there's no 'real ghost' trying to disturb us.. lol.. like angeline say, they take a break.. =P

oh yar.. now i know who the hell is angeline.. met her.. kinda awkward ler.. all from red camp n i was like, huh?.. but get to know her better.. very kind.. n K.B, shes a freethinker eh.. lol.. ok.. met her halfway thru, go mkn.. she nvr say the (makan kenyang) phrase.. n u noe, she lives up north.. yay.. north is better.. =) east sux.. =P

after mkn, went back escape.. take more rides.. i like rainbow ler n the log ride is it.. fun ler.. fathul is so the kan chiong.. lol.. played carnival games.. won myself a plush toy.. its super uber cute.. =)

after one last ride at rainbow n viking with the red camp peeps, we bid goodbye.. me fathul n yat went arcade.. then kinda tired, decided to go home.. i went back bedok to meet up with my bro n kb.. they working at sportslink mah.. n u noe what.. very funny ler see k.b work.. halfway home, almost lost my thoughts..

reach home.. watch tv.. then slp..

TODAY 30/12
woke up ard 2.00pm.. clean up my room.. n u noe what.. i throw away all the notes n bla bla bla abt skool.. im proud eh.. hahas.. no matter what results i get, no retaking of O lvls.. re-update my comp.. now its working better.. =) paste class photos at my desk table.. kinda nice though.. its better to put sumwhere visible then just keeping it at ur drawer.. erm, there's nothing in my comp now.. no song, no games, nothing.. i want to be very careful of what i install.. =)

kla.. till here.. i cant stay still for a moment.. want to do laundry n house-clean again.. tatas..

SCHELDULE
31/12: HARI RAYA HAJI n watch fireworks
01/01: after fireworks, usher in the new yr..
02/01: collect my h/p back n new phone for k.b

h the weather is so damn syiok seh.. i want to slp but need to get up early.. haiz.. go collect pay.. but instead collect it tmrw.. =( but me n kb decided to go bugis.. =) again.. purpose.. slack n find job.. lol..

jln2 at bugis saw niharo.. i pretend not to see her.. lol.. she must be on the way back from home.. ho ho ho.. now i noe where she work.. free coffee n tea or whatever they serve there.. =P

erm, k's hair kinda nice.. but the person SUX.. lol.. i noe he is reading this.. =) he dun noe how to play SOCCER.. he sux.. =P

p.s: this is what happens when i got nothing to blog about.. argh!..


lol.. n u noe what.. im excited for the new year.. first time eh.. i dun noe ler.. coz im turning 17, mayb.. n yar, i hope my whatever 17 will be as GREAT as sweet 16.. =)




i feel this is the most boring entry ever in my blog..






n ILLIYANA, i super uber miss JOANNE ler.. lol.. ;P

CHRISTMAS!.. =)

u noe what, christmas is the best time to gain weight.. coz coz, alot of my presents n me family get are all chocolates.. toys not much ler.. lol.. BUT its great eh.. breakfast chocolate, lunch chocolate, dinner chocolate.. bla bla bla.. n evry time open the fridge mcm chocolate factory la seh.. =))

n i only had 1 MEAL today.. =.="

ok, decided not to go out during christmas.. relax at home.. i noe the outgoin peeps CONFIRM go orchard to experience SNOW.. lol.. there is 'snow' rite?..

erm.. cant wait for skool to reopen.. u noe why.. so most of the SCHOOL students will shoo off from their part time job n there will be many JOBS available to choose from.. =) u noe what, the TRU job, i hav not been goin liao.. n who cares.. =) i thought it was great but it was otherwise..

oh yar.. if i get the STARBUCKS JOB, niharo n k must treat me aites.. =)

kla, till here.. will be out from tmrw morning.. nites people..

SCHELDULE

26/12: pay day

27/12: trial

28/12: job hunt

29/12: chill outside

30/12: house cleaning

31/12: HARI RAYA HAJI

01/01: new phone?..

GOOD EVENING PEOPLE OF THE WORLD.. =)

im blogging early coz tmrw working damn hardcore.. from 9am- 2am in the morning.. siao rite.. but christmas eve.. n sum more, many people will have their last minute christmas shopping.. haiz..

ok.. today went out with k.b.. as per normal, i was late again.. lol.. 15mins i guess.. then we went suntec searching for presents.. =P in the end, went toys r us.. he bought one dun-noe-what-the-hell-toy is that.. but very cheap n innovative.. then went job hunt.. we applied for at ROYAL SPORTING HOUSE n STARBUCKS COFFEE.. either job is good enough already.. for me, toys r us damn hardcore..

after applying bla bla bla.. went bugis.. makan.. erm do u noe the TONG HENG FOODSHOP?.. or whatever it is call.. go eat there.. is damn nice, esp CHICKEN RICE.. dun believe ask alot of ppl abt it.. its really popular.. but i think they use BLACK MAGIC or sumting ler.. evrytime i go there, i cant seem to see any fast food restaurant or other foodshop.. lol..

after makan, survey on the stuff we want to buy after getting pay.. n u noe what!.. i saw PS3.. $1578 (60GB).. i must BUY.. i dun care.. i want to get a stable job.. i must buy.. =) oh yar.. we saw TATUM ANGELA BEINS (style la her name) n IVY at bugis.. T.A.B cork eye lei.. nvr see me.. lol..

then went bus stop.. take bus home.. see the wheelchair bus.. =P erm, goin out again after this.. i dun noe whether i can SURVIVE work or not tmrw..

i thought working at toys r us was easy.. BUT NO!.. very difficult.. n 24/7 walk around the shop.. good thing is, it is not dull coz of the large quantity of toys.. sum more at vivo eh.. so the big.. n i want the JUMBO SPONGEBOB.. peeps, check out at toys r us the JUMBO SPONGEBOB.. is super uber cute..

im into the word uber lately.. lol..

oh.. out of 6 blocks in a row.. 3 of it has undertakers association.. sum peeps just pass away.. n u NOE what.. i need to walk past all of it to reach my house.. freaky eh.. sum more after midnight..

n yar.. i want to talk abt a fren of mine.. very the funny.. she went to this place with her fren.. after sum impt stuff.. she wanted to find for another fren but in the end she saw a SALES ASSISTANT who looks like me.. which is my BROTHER.. when she cant find the other fren of mine, she "PESTER" my brother.. n she LAUGH at my brother.. lol.. i MUST NOE why.. n yar.. then she bid goodbye to my brother n then she's gone..

lol.. kla.. till here.. =)









6 days to 27/12.. argh!..

hello peeps.. im happy.. lol.. but tired at the same time.. -__-"

ok.. today went out.. with keng beng, hui lin, yi ting n caroli.. agreed to meet up at tamp inter at 9am n yar.. i was late.. lol.. sorry ppl.. erm, i reached ard 9.30 then we went to COURTS MEGASTORE to apply for job.. even i have the toys r us job.. =.="

the whole place was PACK liao.. n alot of ppl queing up.. u noe what.. those who queued up actually got an XBOX 360.. not all la.. the first few.. n yar, kb, u were right.. some of them overnite the day before.. =.="

ok.. can say the place was HAPPENING ler.. alot of people.. enter COURTS, apply job.. then window shop.. n u noe what.. comparing XBOX 360, PS3 n NINTENDO WEE(whatever it is call), PS3 is freaking majestic.. n GRAND THEFT AUTO 4 is out.. its COOL!.. good graphic.. n yar.. me n kb thought got free give away of PSP.. lol..

then got display of handphones.. u noe what.. N93 is freaking nice.. i got a test run of it.. nice nice nice.. =)

ok, after spending few hrs in cOURTS, we got hungry.. n yar.. we (excluding me) ate at Century Square.. lol.. saw michelle n ren jian.. they makan there.. oh yar, saw ALAN n JACELYN working at SWAROVSKI or whatever the name is.. it was great ler.. then after makan, went to play arcade.. n yar.. hui lin is so good at making things more of a suspense n heart-thrilling.. =)) then play air hockey.. pai seh to say this, me n k.b lost to hui lin n yi ting.. -____-" but the machine cheat money, halfway jam..

then saw KENDRA and her siblings.. cool.. play soccer game.. then me n kb play time crisis.. then then all of us play 'PHOTO FIND'.. pai seh ler when outside ppl help us to spot a difference.. all cork eye ler.. =P

after play play, then meet bday girl, wei zhen.. giv bday present.. =) then sing to her bday song, apart from me n kb, in front of arcade.. lol..

then took pics.. sent bday girl home.. went sweet talk.. then went tamp inter.. saw michelle n ren jian at tamp inter again..

bid goodbye to k.b.. then bid goodbye to caroli, hui lin, yi ting.. then waited for hajar at bus 22.. took bus home.. n yar, as usual talk nonsense.. lol.. its been so long since i talk to her.. then bid goodbye to her.. then off to slp in the bus.. =)

now here i am.. HOME.. =)

wee.. got a job.. finally.. =)) im happy.. lol.. it means no rotting at home.. less internet usage.. less tv.. less slacking.. im finally out of the house earning money.. =) im a young adult.. lol..


oh yar.. nothing much to say.. just piss off with sum peeps.. sumtimes, ppl cant seem to uds u at all..










sorry to say this, but sumtimes, i hate east-side peeps..

erm.. its been a long time since i last updated..

n my leg is going to detach from my leg sooner or later.. lol..

ok.. saturday went out with kb.. he's a lucky man.. lol.. we meet up at 11 at city hall mrt.. wanted to find job but an hr ago he n my bro got a job at sportlink.. in the end, window shop at suntec..

sunday went out with kb again.. lol.. to j8.. near me hse.. yayness.. met up early in the morn.. as per normal im late.. lol.. he went to buy stuff for his' job.. i window shop again.. no money.. =(

then wanted to find polar at TPY.. but it was near bradell.. -__-" apply job there n yar, im waiting for the call.. lol.. after that, he came my hse.. play pool n cs.. lol.. KB, u win me by luck.. tyco.. hahas!.. stayed till 5.30..

monday, went out with yat, fathul, amrul.. went tbc.. chill at orchard.. then i alone interview job at metro.. =) in the end, went bugis play lan.. n yar.. i saw the hp i like!.. its nice, n yar ppl think its girlish.. -___-" but if i do bought the phone, it means im downgrading my phone.. lol..


TODAY.. rot at home.. i need to find a job.. im irritated staying at home.. im so useless.. evryone is out of the hse working n im the one relaxing.. i dun like it.. argh!.. n yar.. ANGELA, says im her only guy fren who havn found a job.. no!.. it cant be happening..

kla.. till here.. n yar.. my race is FREETHINKER.. lol..

today match very the si beh suay ler.. ok.. firstly, its official.. im not quitting soccer.. =)) im proud of it ok.. to come out after 3 mths absent.. n yar.. we had a match with the Y.C.K Premier League champion lor..

n u noe what.. we lost!.. 5-3.. 5-3 lei.. u noe how terrible it is.. after finishing 90mins, it was 2-2 lor.. then play extra time.. i thought i scored the winning goal but NABEI!.. last 1o mins they score 3goals.. FCUK LER.. argh!.. i hate it..

it was saddening ler.. n yar.. as usual.. chatter chatter chatter.. whatever la.. but i noe one thing.. my time is here.. im coming out of a retirement to prove a point..

i dun want to talk cork hor.. but even we are EXPRESS STUDENTS, we noe how to play soccer ok!.. dun ever think we are the nerd n geeks who cant play soccer.. fcukers out there who want to take this as an insult, then be it..

ok.. the match we lost.. my team complain here n there.. sorry ah ppl.. i noe my team-mates visit this blog and i dun care u like it or not.. my MUM always say.. api lawan api, makin terok ler..

DIRECT TRANSLATION: fire against fire, disaster made..

n what can i say.. im an outsider too.. so i wont speak out much lor..

erm, yar.. i want to write sumting abt my team-mates n me..

IZWAN a.k.a myself..
ok.. after 3 mths absent, u lose ur touch.. u PLAYED like a BEGINNER.. can u start ur training again n be more like who u are 3mths back..

ZAKUAN
to play soccer, u need to be strong.. if u are prone to injury, pls where the necessary protection.. if its necessary to where kevlar n helmet, then pakai aje..

AMRUL
be firm with what u have to comment on other player.. jgn ikot org.. if can, have more confidence.. btw, i think that feet of urs is just a fluke ler.. -___-"

S. Brothers
honestly speaking, if u are ready to change.. then come back to our team.. we dun need ur services..

YAZID
the pep talk u gave to us was completely ineffective to me.. with vulgaraties thrown, honest speak.. tak de org suke.. n favour, jgn target abg aku injury n performance.. it really affects his mentality..

VINCENT
consistent ler ur performance.. but try to avoid playing passing with only S. Brothers.. there are many options ard..

VICKNESH
me n u no stamina ler.. hahas!..

JASON
got alot to improve.. but gd performance for a beginner..

GUNA, GANESH
best.. no negative comments..

ISWANDY
u are still young.. but theres room for improvement.. nice thru ball by the way.. lol

ok.. im done..

if dun like, do leave hate mail, hate tag, hell note.. whatever.. lol..

tmrw job hunt again.. lol..

tatas ppl..

THE REVIVAL

=( i miss work.. shit..

haiz..





HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY COFFIN, VINCENT, n WHOEVER IS BORN on 6 Dec..



HAPPY BIRTHDAY EWIN!..
finally 16.. =)

I WILL DREAM OF MOTOROLA ADAPTOR AND MEMORY STICK..

P/S: THOSE WHO ARE WORKING WITH ME WILL UDS..

honestly, what motivates me to quit soccer is bcoz of his retirement.. =(

ok.. i wasted sumting again.. i did not took the job opportunity i had.. hahs.. ok.. in total.. its more than 3 jobs i have rejected + back out of it.. erm, dun blame anyone.. its my choice.. the recent job is so the tiresome.. coz coz from 8.30am - 8.30pm..

gosh!.. gonna be so tired if i do take the work.. even the pay is nice, i wouldnt risk my health for it.. n yar, mummy dun consent.. =)

ok.. so went out today with yat.. met at orchard mrt before 8 which in this case i reach half-an-hour late.. hahs.. coz coz i woke up late.. hahs.. then we had our breakfast at mcdonalds for ard 3hrs.. before that, we round forum shopping mall even IT IS CLOSE.. but SUBWAY! EAT FRESH! was open.. so i kept mocking the catch phrase.. haha!..

oh yar.. i did alot of bad things today.. sheesh!.. =( i mock ppl here n there.. gosh.. im so hyper.. hahs..

at mcdonalds, it took yat ard an hr to finish his meal.. n yar, my fault again.. hahs.. =))

so we cross the road back n forth to 7-11.. coz got 2 mah.. n yar.. no newpaper, went TOYS'r'US to apply for job.. i want the JOB.. TOYS!..

then went my hse.. play pool while wait for bro to get ready.. then went dhoby ghaut.. job - hunt.. got lost..

n i saw her again.. gosh.. 2 days straight.. n she pretends she did not see me., i miss her smile.. =P

ok ok.. after we lose ourselves, went to bugis.. LAN game again.. then went buona vista.. job hunt, ran uphill.. pose downhill..

n yar.. that was my day.. finish..

oh, we do take pics at road.. who doesnt.. hahas!..

the building.. reminds me of NACHOS!..



gosh.. we look weird.. -___-"



my bro.. =)



we wish we could swim like the fish.. =P



stop it the face.. hahs..



thats me.. =D



the arrow shows to fadhuli.. the new indie boy..



one of a kind..



yat broke his back.. hahas!..



fav. pic of the day..



different poses.. =O



the final photo.. =))

i did not attend the training.. coz i want to watch tv!..

-___-"

bye bye job.. haiz.. nvr mind.. another opportunity gone..

but the job too demanding for me i guess.. commission wise..

n its difficult ok..

n yar.. firdanshah want to play pool with me.. cool.. but need to delay ler.. till nex month.. planning to invite fad, fathul, both yat, nabeel coz coz the more the merrier.. wee!.. n im so restless at home.. HELP!..

oh ppl.. pray for me pls.. hahas!.. i want to get this job.. which they will choose ppl who excel well in their training.. i want i want.. =) so do wish me luck yar.. hahas!..

oh.. just visited caroli blog.. n it makes me think to have A PLAN!.. yar.. have a PLAN.. she had a plan on what to do during the holidays.. so im gonna have sum sort of list on what i want to buy n do during the holidays.. wee!.. =)

copyright yar.. =)

erm. kla.. till here.. ^^

i want to watch again.. i jus finished watching STAR CHINESE MOVIES..

the story.. Moments Of Love..

is so.. nice.. touching the sweet + romantic..

its so meaningful.. n its the first time i watch a full chinese movie w/o leaving it..

-______-"

i did not know abt the story.. then then ,my bro jus scroll the channel.. sheesh!.. its so nice..

love it love it love it..

hahs.. its been a long time since i watch a movie.. sheesh..

ppl.. watch the movie.. got english subtitles..

hahs..

n yar.. im getting more broke.. sheesh.. what english is that..

but yar.. im broke.. big big broke.. argh!..

must find work.. must get job.. i dun CARE!..

ITS OFFICIAL!.. O LEVEL IS OVER!.. WEE!..

i hope i got that lucky charm.. i want to pass my Os badly.. not pass.. ace it ler..

but the effort i put in.. sheesh!.. only the cambridge marker knows..

ok.. few mths of waiting for results..

n im gonna update my wishlist.. coz very the pai seh la.. all seems so urgh!..

nvr mind..

hard to explain..

n yar.. i want to start working!..

be kind.. give me a job.. hahas!..

but lazy ler to job hunt.. -_____-"

kla, lazy to blog.. gonna hang out again.. =)

n yar.. from a poular song..

Hey shawty, please believe
Ain't never seen chicks like this before
Thousand dollar jeans with them candy 6 4's
Louis V sneaks matchin' Louis V seats
See ya swag like no other, so them other's can't compete
Independent and discrete
Check her VDS piece
Melt in ya mouth like M&Ms, capisce
She do whatever she wanna do
Money out the ying yang
Blowin a dollar and the change
In the Rover switchin lanes
Imma take her under my wings, Imma teach her things
She say she got paper cuts from countin all this change
Tell her meet the parents
Like Ben Stiller
Baby say she want them carrots and them chinchillas

wee.. home!.. finally..

fathul!.. sorry tak gi chalet kau.. sakit ler.. -____-"

shopping kat bugis.. hahas!..

ok, my bank account is broke again!..

argh!..

need to save up again..

sheesh!..

o lvl coming to an end..

n yar.. i plan to study but backfire again.. -_____-"

nvr mind.. college.. hahs!..

haiz.. still got alot to buy.. sheesh!..

i really want that belt.. n pants..

must work hard for it..

n oh yar..

CHRISTMAS CUP.. here i come again.. =)

argh!.. im so under the stress.. i cant study.. i want to study.. i got ten days to study but i havn study.. wth..

i dun even bother to study..

ok!.. i dun care.. i need to start.. but how.. i cant.. sheesh!..

haiz.. my voice da mcm monster la seh.. sore throat.. again!.. -____-"

then then.. how to get job.. ouh.. im getting a double job..

hopefully i get the job at toa payoh which is from 7-5..

n a night shift operator from 7-10pm.. i want to work..

i need the money.. to keep for my future..

my family..

n i WANT TO SHOP AT VIVO!.. argh!..

GST is increasing to 7%..

like wth.. i hope its not true..

if not, no more shopping from nex yr..

*sobs*

i think msn hates me.. -_____-"

ok.. firstly msn cursed me.. -____-"

i cant log in n i dun wish to log in..

ppl cant chat with me.. n i cant chat with ppl..

urgh!..

but yar.. i think i will change add soon..

its painful for the eyes to see many EMO NICKS!..

normal EMO can uds la.. OVER-EMO!.. too EMO!.. just plain down to earth PURE EMO!..

sign in.. loading.. window pops up.. loads of EMO nicks!..

ppl whats wrong with u all.. dun be so over can or not.. once in a while uds ler.. but evryday?!?! same e-mail, different EMO NICKS!..

urgh!..

be cheerful!.. its not like the world goin to end or u goin to die if sumting bad happens to you..

i mean, yar la.. ups n downs.. but u dread it for WEEKS!..

-__________________-"

ok cant stand over-emo ppl..

another case!..

if u put ur msn nick with loads of vulgar words n in capital letters.. u think u terror is it..

then evry now n then keep on changing.. like wth..

ppl think u siao la.. get a life..

sheesh!..






ok.. done..

complaining abt ppl..

its been days since i blog..

n yar.. to listen back to the song 'here w/o you'

sheesh!.. i lost alot of ppl in my life..

n damn sure i miss them LOADS!..

gotta admit it..

oh yar.. why does the timing for exams need to be push back..

i dun seem to uds..

ok bush is coming.. so?..

u push back 1 hr?.. i mean like what for..

ok la.. students will be able to revise for an extra hour..

but i dun seem to uds why..

why need to push back the time?..

*think*



PPL!.. LISTEN TO: LIE ABOUT US - AVANT FT NICOLE SCHERZINGER
its nice.. =)

wee!.. surprise from family was way too surprising.. hees..

thanks everyone for making my sweet 16 super duper doubly sweet!..

hahas!..

tks for the wishes!.. =)

thank God for everything..

i nvr felt better..

really appreciate what i have now.. =))

ok..

this is it..

THIS WAS MY BIG SURPRISE!..

argh!.. im addicted to it.. i will take a break from soccer.. is all about BILLIARD!.. yayness..

=)

yay!.. its my birthday.. im 16!..

bluek!.. i dun care what u all think.. its my birthday..

drop me testi!.. hahas!..

had an advanced bday party..

went vivo..

now surprise..

hahas!..

cant wait.. =)

ok.. since its considered my DAY, i want to make bday wishes!..

=)

i dun care what u all think.. bluek!..

MY BIRTHDAY WISH!..

1) cherish my love ones more n more.. =)

2) create more jokes..

3) same school as f.y. =)

4) improve soccer.. to a much more higher standard!..

5) murah rezeki =))

6) be in a very LONG relationship..

when i mean LONG this time, i mean it.. it seems so stupid to have short ones.. its either me or the opposite to blame.. but i wont be desperate to search for a new one.. i dun care what u ppl think.. hahas!..

7) improve manipulation tactics.. hahas!..

WHO HAVE WISH ME

1) sugi0

2) niharo

3) dalila

4) TWZ

5) yazid trendy wanker

6) boboy

7) fathul is belating it.. -____-"

8) n the list goes on.. hahas!..

6hrs at Vivocity = total greatness.. hahas!..

pics from Vivo.. =)






f.y.i pose





ready for take off..





yat semang.. hahas!..





pls enter.. hahas!..





no lifeguard..





they see me mowing my front lawn

solarise Fathul n me.. hahas!..





f.y.i craziness..





look.. there's an astronaut in the sky..





fathul white mine brown.. hahas..





posing for the toilet..





me!.. hahas!..





damn!.. why did i close my eyes.. hahas..





fathul asking for more.. hahas!..





i love the teddy.. argh!..

hahas..

Your Birthdate: November 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

oh sheesh!.. my weakness is extreme manipulation tactics..

what the hell is that suppose to mean..

but whatever it is.. i must improve on it.. hahas!..

alter-ego: do u noe the difference between HIGHEST COMMON FACTOR and LOWEST COMMON MULTIPLE?..

izwan: yar.. i do.. why?..

alter-ego: do u think u got right for ur LCM during math paper 1?..

izwan: erm.. yar..

*recall back*

izwan: ARGH!.. f.u.c.k friends u can keep.. f.u.c.k friends u can keep..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I HATE MYSELF RITE NOW!.. argh!..

sheesh!.. gone marks.. =(

aiyo.. stupid la..

nvr mind.. must persevere..

ok.. short update..

do u noe the song hurt by christina aguilera?..

i gotta admit it.. i love the song.. it can bring me to tears ok.. not lying..

im not EMO-shits.. its touching.. she sings it with u noe.. passion bla bla bla..

urgh!.. sad sad listen to the song..

='(

ok.. open hse ended at 1.00am.. guest leave at 5.30am..
-_______________-"

nvr mind.. once a year.. =))

yar, tks for coming.. did not have the time to invite loads of ppl..

sorry..

tks fathul, yat for coming early.. not forgetting fadhuli, irsyad, hafidz, alif, adha, suhadan for coming too..

tks for finishing the food.. not wasted.. =))

erm, ok la.. till here..

need to start revising..

hello!.. first of all i want to thank FATHUL for another broken nail..

='(

hahas!..

i hate it ler.. both my toes is 'dead'.. i cant kick a ball.. urgh!..
my right toe is torn.. left toe, broken nail..

urgh!.. wth.. itchy ok to wear shoes,,

then then.. play soccer sum more.. -___-"

n i nvr go to mr connor's open hse..

cause cause my rumah terbuke is tmrw too.. =))


n yar.. which COLLEGE shud i go?..

east or west..

if my results really sux.. =P


erm, ok la.. till here..

=))

hello!.. first of all i want to thank FATHUL for another broken nail..

='(

hahas!..

i hate it ler.. both my toes is 'dead'.. i cant kick a ball.. urgh!..
my right toe is torn.. left toe, broken nail..

urgh!.. wth.. itchy ok to wear shoes,,

then then.. play soccer sum more.. -___-"

n i nvr go to mr connor's open hse..

cause cause my rumah terbuke is tmrw too.. =))


n yar.. which COLLEGE shud i go?..

east or west..

if my results really sux.. =P


erm, ok la.. till here..

=))

erm, like the lyrics to the song.. =)

BLUE OCTOBER - HATE ME

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you




And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

tmrs BIO!.. why does it need to be BIO?.. why?.. sheesh!..

im so WEAK in bio.. ok.. not weak.. i SUX in it.. =(

my prelims for BIO was TREMENDOUSLY TERRIBLE!.. =(

gosh.. i want to pass ler.. how?..

revise from just ytd.. n i still got a handful of chaps to cover.. im slow..

=(

erm.. but one gd thing abt BIO is that i can have hope of adding weight..

evry 2 hrs of BIO, i eat a meal.. =)

stress..

oh yar.. i like the lyrics to the song NEVER FAR BEHIND - ALY & AJ..

=))

4 more days..

sheesh!..

shud i focus on BIO?..

erm.. is there any way to avoid careless mistakes.. after tons n tons of practice.. its the same mistakes bein repeated..
-_______________-"

wth..

nvr mind.. must open eyes extra big..

oh yar.. i have avoided msn since 7 hrs ago.. i need to make it 24hrs.. at least a day..

ouh.. anybody have the song 'to be loved..' by PAPA ROACH..

can send me thru mail?..

erm.. till here..


3RD DAY OF RAYA

ok.. i admit it.. im ZHI LIAN at sum events only.. i admit it!..

especially SPECIAL EVENTS!.. e.g: GRAD DAY, HARI RAYA!..

hahas!.. =))


sum of the pics of me family..

me n beng.. hahas!.. tak tahu malu!..

i dun care!.. i like this pic..

my own pic.. hahas!..

yayness!.. me n bro completed TIME CRISIS 4!.. sheesh!.. so the difficult n tiring ler..

cant wait for its release.. is a must buy game..

but i havn complete TIME CRISIS 3.. ='(

im back.. hahas!..

thats it.. hahas!.. =)

sheesh!.. graduation fun fun.. photo-frenzy.. 4E2 06' rox to the core la seh..

hahas!.. great la seh..

ouh.. i like hui li speech.. nice nice.. hahas!..

esp on Mr Lew.. straight to the face..

we dun uds ur jokes.. hahas!..

i cant stand laughing la seh..

=))

ouh.. O levels ard the corner n im busy with laziness..

hahas..

sheesh!..

my fren challenge me to score 14 pts or less.. sheesh!.. i must score less..

even though he is working already.. n he is ard 26++

still need to beat him.. hahas..

stress!.. argh!..

erm..

graduates.. tks for the memories.. tks for everything.. really appreciate it.. the sec 1 - sec 4 memories.. tks much much.. =)

haiz.. gonna miss bts.. ms choo, mdm fawziyah n the list goes on..

to my enemy / haters / old frens / new frens / [graduates]

good luck for ur O levels..


n last but not least..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!.. WEE!.. =)

YAYNESS..
HAPPY WITH TEARS..
N SAD WITH JOY
SHEESH!.. <3

saturday is today-is-the-tomorrow-ithink-abt-yesterday.. =)

few more days to raya.. then been spoil by mt retake.. =(

only this yr.. haiz.. i still havn start my intensive revision..

sheesh!.. im gonna die of lack-knowledg-ing..

oh shud i make new specs.. its gonna be my 3rd spec this yr if i do make one.. first one break perferctly in half.. then 2nd one, i think the degree is not suitable ler..


maybe today[sat] go break fast with my frens.. last time before we celebrate raya.. sheesh!.. first time this raya, only bought one colour..

feels awkward but kind to think of it.. budget la..

=)

ouh.. z610i.. very the cute.. it comes in BLUE, BLACK OR PINK..
i like the pink one.. nice nice.. doesnt mean i like pink it shows im gay..

hello!.. im back!..

friggin tired.. practical was disturbing.. bio seems troublesome.. physics!.. urgh!.. need to change metres!.. wth!..

3 marks.. gone.. =(

wth!.. padan muke aku.. =(

10 days to MT retake.. n i feel awkward retaking it again.. shameonme ler.. =(

GRADUATION!.. cant wait.. nxt week.. yayness!.. 1e2 03' photo take.. =))
whose idea huh?..

n i HATE ppl whose name have the initial "I".. i mean the first INITIAL is "I"

i can say i hate myself.. these ppl including me.. has a habit.. its true.. try to observe the "I"

get to know them well.. n they have this freakin habit which is so weird..

i got to admit it.. i got sumting in me i hate a lot but cant remove it..

sheesh!..

sian eh.. i MISS a lot of things!..

LIST OF 'MISS' THINGS
~ stoning..
i miss stoning.. its been so long since for me doin nothing n watch the world past by.. the beauty of stoning.. bleahs..

~ soccer..
its been ard a month since i kick a soccer ball.. u noe how long it is.. its so the long.. argh!.. how how?.. nvr mind.. must resist..

~ guitar!..
the string shud be 'sort' already.. its been ages since the last time i touch it..
so the strange..

~ reading!..
it may sound weird.. but i miss reading!.. good novels.. short stories.. not reader digest.. i need to shop at the library.. sian eh.. so awkward not bringing a story-book inside my bag.. ='(

~ slacking
so long nvr 'lepak' ler.. sian eh.. nvr mind.. wait for me.. hahas!.. just few more wks to go.. =)


u, i miss u.. why are we so the very apart?..


~ lessons
so long.. i wish i can have more humans n math.. =)


sheesh!.. business need science.. i hope it doesnt play a real big part in it..
i want accountancy.. can SP pls increase the points?..
12 pts is like.. u noe, better go JC even if its L1R4..


oh oh.. cant wait for AMK shopping centre.. it looks similarly to harbourfront.. undergrd inter?.. cool cool.. hahas..

hope its good good.. cant wait.. impatient me..


yay!.. my sweet 16 goin to have a party!.. hahas!.. even if its a long way to go..

whats so sweet abt this yr?.. hmph!.. more to sweet-sour.. =P

oh!.. FADHLI!.. biol ke pe kat tag kau!.. hahas!..




my letter to you will be sincerly sweet.. =)