This may sound pretty odd, but I'm currently a bookworm. A livid bookworm? I may say.
To be honest, I almost tear reading this book. Yeah, sounds gayish but it's for you to judge seriously. Didn't expect it to be such a heart-warming experience. Anyone have "The Notebook" please pass it to me. I wanna read this author's first book till its current one, titled The Lucky One. ( :

And, frankly speaking too. A game like Metal Gear Solid touches heart too you know. Seriously, all PS3 owners, get this game and play it. Even if you didn't follow its series, it's worth the penny. The build up to the ending, majestic. And MGS fans will agree with me, those who own and completed the game, that this game can make you cry. FYI, I didn't but I can't deny that it moved me. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. To top it all up, it's a better game compare to GTA4 since GTA4 was relatively short, plus models are another "wow" factor in MGS4. hoho. Till then.

Before that, t3h S.o.S and t3h H.o.H birthday is coming. My bro and mom sort of remind me abt my birthday. -.- Go figure with the term H.o.H, while for S.o.S it's been stated in my last year's birthday post. hoho. A tip on H.o.H, Honcho is the first word. hahahahahahaha.

She totally freak me out in my first stint at the game.

Her lips, are disturbingly attractive don't you think so?

I have every reason not to attend school now. :P

2nd Semester is here. Roughly 18mths and I will be out and running to NS -_-. Access to freedom is at the age of 55/65. Unless you earn big bucks, that's not an understatement.

I really would like to apologise for not updating my blog like how I used to. The mental image of some unwanted readers reading my blog is disturbing. But I'm sparing a thought to old friends who kept in touch with me via here by updating it minimum once a month. Worst case, just tag if you need me. (:
Would like to change the blog link but would be unfair to the old peeps. 0.0

Anyhow, it's true this word exist but i'm using it loosely, *scream to the thought of MGS4.* And thank you friends for recommending this game. *bleahs* Bro bought it and I got a feeling he have no intention of playing it. -____________-

Okie, let's reminisce abit. Raya-ing with friends last Friday. It's true when some ppl say, that secondary school is the time where you find friends that will last.

Like duh, don't be dense. Arm and my bro are not from my secondary school but they grow up with me. (:

hmm, speaking of friends, it's good to know that someone's seeing me changing to be a better person. I'm not saying I'm cruel, obnoxious, angsty, yada-yada. It's just that I need to ditch this hatred.


?: It's good to see that you start talking to *insert name* again.
Me: I need to stop hating, the past is the past.
?: That's really something, new. [even it sounds a bit sarcastic]


!!!!!! SLIGHT INTERRUPTION !!!!!! Yat, the "erat-erat" and "vespa" guy is an exception. I know you will be "this is the part where I should slide in a comment or two." In advance, _l_.


I'm not effeminating or obsess with these "effort to change" but at least I'm attempting. hoho, plus one for me. On a hindsight, maybe I will regret this change. -.- Hopefully I won't.

Speaking about change, hoping to get a book from library or two tomorrow. Queried about it since Nicholas Sparks [turns to zulfah] seems to be popular these days. Did a mini research on him and it's safe to say he's really an established author. I'm unable to give a good comment or so about him, but bandwagon-wise, it's all about very romantic and and I'm currently digging deep in search for a better word. -.- I don't know, gaaawd, sounds too mushy for a guy of my caliber but whatever.
Imagine I'm spotted reading this book with my purple/maroon/red/*insert colour* hair.*DANGS* Don't insert my evil smile.

*Looks at the length of the post*

I had intentions to blog ONLY on MGS4 and something not that lengthy but boy I'm surely in Gear 4 now. 0.0
Mentioning abt evil smile, congratulations to Arm for being the 3rd person who spotted my evil smile. Yes, I will remember the standings as it is very hard to differentiate a normal smile and an evil smile of mine. Yat came in first, followed by Fathul. Coincidence? Maybe because we hang out alot together -.- Either that or some ppl didn't bother to point it out. hurhurhur.


Me: *sms-ing while thinking* [spotted with that thoughtful face]
Arm: eh wan, seriously stop it with that smile. Seram seh tgk. Ade je tau kau fikir bende lain.
[eh wan, seriously stop it with that smile. It's freaky. You must be thinking of something else.]
Me: *laughs* [LOL]


YES! FINALLY I REMEMBERED! This blog entry was meant for school. -.-
Anyway, let me type it out before I forget my actual intentions. So yeah, first day of school was a blast. This may contradict some part of my above post but I can't help myself. I'm not defaming them fyi.
A lecturer who pronounces "forging" as "forching," a lecturer who seems to be a crook, a lecturer that is ******* annoying who pronounces my name as "izwanG" and a lecturer who looks like Mr Pringles. [heads up to Ashley for the thought]

You see, the thought of "izwanG" really "wang" me up. He taught me for 6mths in the FIRST YEAR FIRST SEM and this is my 2nd stint. I need to suffer another freaking 6mths with a "G" at the back of my name. And he's in charge of MATH! LECTURING! OMG! And he starts off his lesson with a comment, questionable, on some Indian dude. I'm dreading Math already. G-string betol. Gay.

Anyway, that aside. Saw Ezzati and Erny today. And zomg, I waved. -______- Hello, I kinda shock too you know. It may be a small gesture to some but that's rare for the moment. And saw my primary school friend who was labeled prostitute by a friend. *ouch* Won't elaborate on it. =P

Anyway, I'm off. Hoping to wake up early later so I can visit the gym. ZOMGBBQS, it's been awhile.

I was about to let it all out. Blog in my first language. Blog abt how life's been, how horrendous this mental torture is getting by the day. All because of an event that initiated the downfall. Maybe one day someone will see me cry my heart out. Maybe I will just stay mum and bring this pain with me six feet under. Maybe this pain obliterated my inner conscience. Maybe it's time for me to forgive. Maybe.

-inner-self

Can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong

Yet to know the actual story, the story of my life. Not knowing that the truth might obliterate this being.

*snap snap*
Okie, dilemma. Sry abt that. Anyhow, told my mom abt getting married. And she's so opposing it. -.- Like duh.

Had a sumptous feast just now with Arm. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. I won't blog abt it, cause it's breaching his privacy. :p

Till then, :)

HAHAHAHAHAHA (: