CHAPTER 10

It was already two weeks since he heeded the doctor's advice. During the two weeks, he never stepped out of bed. All he did was just lay down and rest. Perhaps in all his life, he never had so much rest. Yet, the rest was tormenting. The rest forbad him from seeing her, it took her away from him for such a long time..........

He laid there on his bed looking at the ceiling. He had been staring at it for so long, that he could spot the cracks almost immediately. Slowly and subconsciously, his thoughts drifted back to her again........

She was standing there at the corner, so pretty and innocent. As he walked out from the classroom, he saw her, for the first time too........ He was bedazzled by her........ He never knew such a special person existed. She was just like an angel, with big round eyes and fair delicate skin. He cheeks were glowing with a tint of rosy red, her smile was so sweet that nectar as compared would be deemed sour. But, he could let no one know about it. He turned his head just as instantenously, and walked straight past her, as if he never noticed her existence.

But now, this was his biggest regret. Had he been braver, had he did something, maybe things would not have come to such a manner. He would have been a part of her life, they would have had memories they shared. Maybe, she would have remembered him..........

His thoughts were interuppted by the doctor who had unknowingly entered the room.

"Mr. Itsuki, I have a piece of good news for you........"

The doctor looked at Takeshi with a pleased look on his face. What good news could there be? Could it be that............

"Congratulations, you can be discharged tommorow........"

Takeshi's face fell. That was not what he wanted. To him, that was not good news.......... His hopes were dashed again. In fact, the news of him being discharged tommorow was more of a bad news, for this meant that he had to leave, leave the place she is in. Did this meant that he had to leave her forever?

"Another piece of good news for you too.........."

The doctor added mysteriously.

"Ms. Mimura would be discharged on tommorow too. "

With that, the doctor left the room, with Takashi deep in thoughts. Not long after he left, Takeshi got out of bed. He put on his slippers and held on the railings as he tried to stabalize himself. It had been two whole weeks since he walked, his legs felt wobbly. Slowly, he walked to her ward. He wanted to see her again. Two weeks of missing her was already far more than he could bear it. How, he wondered, was it that he could have lasted three years without seeing her..............

There was no one in her room, only herself. He knocked softly on the door. She looked up at him with a gentle smile.

"Hi....."

She said softly. He was shocked and surprised. Has she recovered her memory and remembered who he is?

"Kotoko, you remembered who I am? "

He looked at her anticipatingly, but she shook her head, again.

"Can you try to help me find back my memories of you? Everyone told me that you were someone very important to me..........."

He nodded his head. Maybe, maybe she would be able to remember him. He thought hard of the places that he wanted to bring her to, the places which might bring back her memories.

The following days after they were discharged, he brought her to all the places in the school where he always saw her at, he brought her to the basketball court where they once bumped into each other at, he brought her to the classroom where they first met. But, she simply could remember nothing.

"Look, this was the classroom where we first met. Do you recall anything? It was the first time I saw you...... Remember?"

Still, she only shook her head. She was getting tired. Everytime he brought her to a new place, she still could recall not a single thing.

"Think hard, think again........"

He cajoled her, hoping that she might recall something, afterall this was the place where they first met.

"I really cannot.........My head is hurting........"

"Try again, think harder..... Maybe the headache will help to bring back your memories? Or maybe we ........."

Before he could continue, he was cut off by her............

"I really cannot remember a thing....... why must you force me? Maybe I don't remember a thing because I don't want to............ Stop forcing me...... I don't want to remember anything......... anything about you.......... Just let me off......... I am happy as I am now..... Just get out of my life............. I don't want to see you. You bring me nothing but sadness, just leave me alone, please................"

Her words pierced his heart terribly. Was he really such a terrible person in her eyes? Did she really detested him so much? So much that she could say such a thing to him, could break his heart so badly............. He looked at her with a pained look.

"I am sorry............"

She apologised. She was just frustrated and angry. Angry with herself for not remembering a single thing, and frustrated by his persistence. But, he just shook his head.

"It's okay, I know you are tired. I think I better go............"

Takeshi turned his head and walked away. Unknown to Kotoko, as he was walking away, tears were flowing down his cheeks.............

Maybe, he thought, maybe things would be better this way. Since she is happy like that, it might be better to let things be like this forever. Perhaps, it was only his selfishness, wanting her to recall who he is, forcing her to recall who he is. Maybe, he thought, it was impossible to go back to yesterday anymore..............


**next chapter is the final.. T_T